yeah! my cousion is helping me to bring the zen micro to repair! hahaha i hope they do a good job out of it. lol. thanx man. i feel bad la. but she said that he bf lives in jurong anyway. so yup =)

interview at nus yesterday sucked like shit. i dono wad to say and they kept bombarding me with questions. some of which i do not know how to answer and i think i answered one VERY wrongly. haha they asked: i understand that prof lim replied you mail. wad was ur fisrt reaction to that. u know wad u stupidly replied as usual?
me: oh to tell u the truth, i did contact my father and asked for help.he asked me questions and briefed me about the courses of mechnical engine.
CLEVER me rite. haha. nvm im glad i said that. so mayb they wun want me in nus alr. what they asked me were reali very good. i mean those are questions that i frequently asked myself but always didnt want to answer them. they asked me and i had no choice but to answer right. so yup its good in a way. dont rlei want to elaborate on what they asked me. it really sucked big time. i was quite disappointed in the way that i answered their questions. prof lai asked those reli logical questions that made me think..

after this interview with the 2 prof, it made me realise that i do not actually want to study in nus. that its not an environment for me. its just like another TJC and NYJC, and asking me which sch do i want to study in. aft hearing some stories frm my frn, im glad i was in ny. its about the people and environment that i feel is more important for me. and not the ranking of the school. ok i dont deny that nus DOES sound much better den ntu. but u ask some students why they would want to go nus instead of ntu, i think majority would say its the name. haha. or isit just me? zq said tt he feels ntu are for lousy students. asshole. i dont wana talk to him anymore. haha. but seriously, now i do want to go to ntu. and i have friends there too. though that is not the main attraction. haha. hmmm have to get my dad's approval first. he said discuss when we get home. haha im wondering if he will keep by his word saying that its my choice.

went out w bren again. haha she accompanied me all the way to nus. but of cos i paid for the cab fee la. lol. aft the interview, we went to bugis for lunch and shopped. haha she wanted to get the body shop men's body spray i thnk, but the 50% discount was over. =( nvm, im sure they'll have another sale soon.haha. we went to converse aft tt cos they were having a sale. and guess wad? i bought clothes again! haha. black tshirt with pink and white words and flower degisn. it was nice. and only $19.90! material was not bad. haha. THEN, i spoted this sweater, jacket, wadever u call it la. haha. it was selling fr $19.90 also!!! omg i bought it man. haha and thankfully i could squeeze into a L size. just nice. it is light blue in colour, with the word 'converse' using those cut up cloth with pink threads. it was nice and damn worth it. original price was $59.90. though there were some threads sticking out, but that can be cut off la. not much of a prob. *huge grins* aft that, we went to the shumera counter cos i wanted to do my eyebrows. it was reasonably priced la. i mean its 'branded' leh. haha. the lady did it very nicely. i loved it! =) its not too thin, but i will have to draw it everyday to make it look nicer. haha. kailin i will bring u there one day. haha. nice nice! but maintaining it would be another prolem. haha

ok now for the grand total i have spent on clothes and others. NOT including food and transport! frm 22may to 30 may
1. blue fila polo tee $18.80
2. 2 giodarno polo tee $34.20
3. 2 Esprit tops $49.90
4. pink nike sleeveless $31.20
5. black converse tee $19.90
6. blur converse sweater $19.90
7. black bikini with padding $32.90
8. mabelline blusher in matt coral $12
9. body shop oceanous body mist $9.90
10. eyebrow shaping at shumera $15
total damage : $243.70

omg someone come kill me now! haha im spending like nobody's business! muahahah

[[ . ]]* |11:52 AM|

my stupid zen micro is spoilt! damn it. im so pissed off. wad the hell is wrong w it?! arghs!! now im misuc-less and bored like shit. cousion said that she doesnt have the warrenty card oso. and that if i want to repair it, i have to go all the way to jurong east to get it done. wth. i dont live in JE thanx. haha but she' nice la. she's gg to help me ask ard. haha =)

went out w bren yesterday. hmm spend $ again. as usual. haha bought the body shop oceanous body mist. $9.90 only! so just buy and keep. im not gg to pay like $19.90 for that bottle again. hahaha. cheapskate me i know. who cares! went shopping basically. bought a bikini but i doubt i'll ever wear it with all my fats oozing out. hahaha. the ONLY time i will wear it...hmmm mayb when im tanning at my grandma's hse swimming pool. PROVIDED there's no one there. heeh. but i didnt get the one that i liked. of fine, mayb cos my boobs are too big. bleah. but than again, mine's not the biggest lor! stil have other's bigger den mine leh. hahaha. don want the tanlines. =( den again, im not wearing spag strap so cannot see de. haha

retail therapy doesnt work for me. i have spent like 200bucks over the wk since last sat. i feel so broke. damn it. bought too many things alr la. hahaha. and im paying all myself. this is bad. and aft spending so much, im still feeling like shit. >.<>

having the interview later! im so bloody nervous!! help! even though my dad has alr helped me prepare a list of questions, im still nervous! hahaha. and the prof Lee Thong See replied my mail only this morning at 10am lor. wad the hell. im alr in the office! hahaha. and he asked me to bring documents. like Alvl cert, Olvl cert, CCA records and other revalent documents. thanx man. i have to make an extra trip home. cos i only brought my Alvl documents. arghs. hahaha its ok. im fine. lol so i got to leave at 1250 ltr.

was online last night for 2 hrs. he didnt even come and talk to me. am i so insignificant? i feel so weird. den i opened a window and just stared at his nick and his photo. haha. dumb right. just stared lor. but hmm at least im feeling slightly better now. like i know he bo chap me. den im trying my best not to think abt him la. though its quite difficult. haha

i'll do my best for the interview later. i dont want to throw my father's face. i feel more confident that in the past. mayb cos i have gone through some job interviews and all.. calling ppl up. somehow increases my confidence slowly. =) BUT, im still nervous. hahaha. wad crap. i hope i do well for this. i really do. pls pray for me..

[[ . ]]* |10:40 AM|

hmm this morning was very sian. gg out soon. but its raining. meeting bren ltr. haha. she's gg to study and im gg to read. surprising rite. havent reli sat down at a coffee house and read for a very long time. at the same time we can bitch and talk about the stupid guys in our lives. we're sort of in the same situation. suppsoed to forget this guy, but we cant do it. or cant bear to do it. haha. yup. but! we're trying.

msged him online just now
me: hey so when u gg overseas?
him: 8 june
(den i didnt reply)
him: sorrie. i go have my lunch first. brb.
me: sorry?
and he didnt reply alr. haha expected.

what more can i expect frm him? nothing i suppsoe. haha. its just a thought. but im happy that he even bothered to reply. mayb he wants to tell me that he's not interested anymore. well. wish me luck then. his overseas trng trip forever delaying, either that, he's trying to fake me. wtf. rlei lor. haha. nvm. i'll get over this period. its tough. cos he gave me high hopes and made me like him. asshole. no thanx to him im feeling like this. BLEAH

. monochromed life .

[[ . ]]* |1:31 PM|

hmm today was no surprise again. haha he didnt ask me out. so i went parkway with my mum and sisters. saw fiona xie and julian hee! wahh he looks damn good! *drools hmmm didnt reli do anything there la. just walked ard and had ice cream. i think this was one of the first, or was it the first time that the 4 of us sat down and talk, crap and eat? haha. ya its a nice feeling. cos i always envied those family that were v close. yups. love my family. wanted to get a windbreaker. a branded one. ok yes, im brand consious. but its cos i'll be wearing it quite often ma. den i donwan a weird weird looking one. get wad i mean. haha. too bad parkway dont have. hmph

msged him at 430 saying
me:hey hmm so i doubt we'll be meeting today alr rite. enjoy ur wkend then. =)
him:not dos wk.. i v tired, need to recharge. i no batt, not low batt. haha..
me: haha okok. but u shd at least tell me that u cannot make it wad. rest well then.

wah kao. he made me sound as if im the one asking him out. wtf. i feel so stupid and dumb. but rlei lor. i know ure tired, but not to the extent where u cant msg me to tell me that ure not free or sth? arghs. u know wad. i think hes just not interested alr. and moreover, he's gg to thailand for trng on the 1st june for 3 wks. wtf. arghs. its irritating. haha. i cant help it. friends have told me that he's a bastard and not worth it. but i have no idea why do i like him so much! if ppl were reading this, they wil feel like boxing me rite. haha. well.. i reli have no idea. mayb cos of what we talked about before? he gave me hopes. =) time to wake up darling. haha

i will feel sad and all whenever i see him online. its like i expect him to msg me. ok, not expect. mayb hope he'll msg me. but no. i always have to be the first to msg. and just now i msged hey =) , he didnt reply. haha ok fine, mayb there was nothing to reply to la. but i mean i will be happy if u even bothered to reply! is that too much? i dont think so. he's just wasting my time la. im sure i can find much better guys in uni. and engine?! def wil have more guys rite? hahaha. hopefully. im not desperate. just feel that i deserve better. bleah

went to the airport to see this relative who's here for holiday. haha relatives frm china asked her to pass ALOT of things back for us. my yi-po(grandma's sis) , her husband and laoxiong went too. haha actually i went today was cos xiong was gg =) wanted to see him. haha he's rlei a VERY nice guy. i think he's like the best guy i have ever seen. sensible, reliable, responsible, put others before himself, caring, humorous, listens, wad have u.haha BUT he has a gf =( but i think she's very lucky. xiong especially drove his grandparents all the way to the airport and back. pls tell me which guy will actually do that!? i doubt any will. haha. seriously speaking. i was mesmerised. i have a secret crush on him since forever. hahaha. but he's reli a very nice guy. if only every guy was like him. and he's not bad looking. 7/10. ok, pleasent looking la. not that fantastic. but his character is superb lor! makes up for everything. hmm he's tall. 178? but abit too skinny for me. haha. i dono la. everyone always say: lao xiong jin guai. (he's very guai) haha. true 100% *claps*

someone pls wake me up. im still living in my dream

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

[[ . ]]* |10:54 PM|

today was a VERY busy day for me and jy. we spent the WHOLE day doing the checking and printing of reports for the different agencies. it was hell man. i was suppoed to leave at 3 to meet frens but left at 6 instead! haha. arghs. and today was suppsoed to be some family dinner thingy, and we could leave at 430. so can we be paid overtime? as if. haha things are better w her today. at least we joked and laugh. i think i was PMSing too much yesterday and i feel bad. lol

met A and A for dinner. haha. one of them just came back frm USA! hahaha havent seen her for so long! she looks like a taitai. wahaha. had dinner at coffee club express. had this smoked salmon pasta thingy. not bad la. added the service charge and everything, each had to pay like 18bucks! =( haha. but alright la. went walk walk aft tt. bought another gio polo tee.in white.my fav. haha. and a hot pink nike sleeveless top for 31bucks! hahaha. took cab home, 6bucks. so the grand total i spent today was 74bucks plus. hahaha. omg. im so dead.

nus granted me an interview! omgomgomg. im nervous. just when i thought of gg to ntu, they replied my mail. hahaha. and the head is gg to interview me himself! help! im so nervous!! okok i have said many times alr la. haha. but i cant help it. if tat J knows that i have been granted an interview with the engine dept, she will freak man! howhowhow?! i don dare to tell her. cos i mean, this one is rlei pull strings one. hai. happy and sad. contradiction... its like i know the place quite alright in nus. cos my dad teaches there and i have been there soo man times! i even know where the administration office is! i bet many ppl dont know. haha. wtf. they say that nus is better known for its arts and ntu is better known for its engine la. delimma (hw2spl?)

the stupid blusher i bought yesterday had a broken mirror! irritating. shit. im bringing to change soon! its not making me happy. bleah. and i stupidly nv bring the recipt out!! just today only. other days i have like tonnes of receipts in my wallet! haha. nvm. i wil change it tmr or monday! the shade is matt coral. very natural. thanx to brenda. haha she introduced it to me. haha

back to last night, meet B for dinner and she pei me go all the way to boon lay to meet the seller. i bought the dkny be delicious and davidoff cool water. both miniatures. 30bucks. shit. come to think of it, i could have spent it elsewhere. haha. the stupid wallet was so old and like mouldy alr and the stupid seller said it was in good condition and only bought for one yr. it looked as if it was bought 10 yrs ago! asshole. nv gg to get things frm her anymore. don like.

hmmm i dont think he's gg to ask me out. he hasnt msged or called me. and he's not online. how?shd i be so stupid and wait for him to ask me out? anyway i dont feel like gg out tmr. save money!! hahaha. its expected that he will not make it. even though he hasnt said it out YET. but as usual, he will only tell me aft the day has passed. haha. fuck. thank god i didnt have my hopes up high in the sky. so i didnt fall badly.. every since that day he said he was at my void deck, i have been hoping that he would be there to give me a surprise when i reach home. hahaha. hmmm well, a girl can dream right? =) just donwant anyone to wake me up. haha.

dreaming of you

[[ . ]]* |11:09 PM|

crazy people at suntec! =)

[[ . ]]* |1:38 PM|

hmm this morning was like shit. i was so pissed off! but come to think about it now, its quite dumb.sorry to tree trunk tt i was so attitude. but it was ur fault i got so pissed. arghs. dont want to talk abt it.haha.yups. its over. i feel so hyprocrite.haha but i cant help it. its not like i want to. but well, yours truely has a high tolerance level. dont pass it. bleah.

there was this cute guy that came to our office yesterday! hhahah. my office is deprived of cute, young guys. so ya, that was something fresh. heeh =) he was here for an interview. hope he gets wadever he's here for. hahaha. so i will have an eye candy! *evil grins* hehehe

met B again today for lunch.haha had BK this time.we're the save money kind. and well, they had student meal, so no harm wad.hahaha. talked abt the usual stuff and laughing at dumb stuff. its rlei nice talking to her. feel at ease.. not that i dont feel at ease when talking to other frens la. haha. ok, nvm im too tired to think of a proper way to say that. took pictures aft tt. haha it looked very good! she better send me soon! hurry! i want to post them up. hahaha. bought blusher at guardian. lol it was the last one there and in the right shade! omg. B was saying how lucky can i get man! hahaha. =) matte coral is the shade.looks natural, and they're having a 20% off. so just get it la.

going to BOON LAY tonight! omg. its damn bloody far can. just to meet this stupid lady so that i can get my perfumes and PC wallet, if its in good condition that is, 30bucks for 15ml of davidoff cool waters and a 7ml DKNY be delicious! wahaha. think its not worth it.but just feel like getting it. so yup. heeh. PC wallet looks kinda old, but she said its in good condition. so will be deciding later when i get to see it.

ok, back to the same topic. HIM. hmmm im reli excited and scared at the same time. he had better not cancel on sat. its the first time i'll be seeing him. im reli nervous. though its only thursday.but its like only 48 hours away! wahaha. help me pls. den im thinking of what to wear. what to say and how to react. i dont want to look dumb in front of him. haha pray for me pls. lol. =) i dono what will he tell me. to forget about him? or he alr has someone else in mind? tt time my fren even asked me, 'eh u like this kind of guy meh?! haha' yes. i have no idea why i like him.mayb cos i fell for his sweet talk? yup. 30% yes. me brainless? 70% yes. help.

its the way you make me feel.

[[ . ]]* |3:11 PM|

hmmm he msged me this morning. : morning.. going for field camp le. take care ya
haha hmm and guess wad i stupidly replied?! : morning DEAR.take care and becareful ya.
someone just knock me out NOW.haha.how dumb can i get man?! its like so duh. why did i even reply? reply him nvm ah, still go and put a 'dear' inside.omgomgomg. wanted to msg him saying i was too tired and didnt realise i had added that in, but fren said donwant. let it sound natrual. i think im too used to using dear on him that i actually msged him that. haha. yup. plain dumb. i dono wad to say abt myself.

this morn, J asked me how was my wkend. it made me suspicious. really. cos its like she knew something that i dont. and u cant blame me for being suspicious cos she did have some contact with him in the past. like him asking her to ask for my address. haha. yup. i feel weird. but i didnt tell J that he asked me out. i donwan things to mess up. just cant help but feel... hmmm... dono how to say. cos wad im thinking abt can run both ways. haha.

had lunch with one of my good buddies. haha short but well. fun la. bought another top frm bodynits.i think its too short, but i liked the colour. its something different.haha.and B said it looked alright. hmmm. she is truthful la. so it cant be that bad rite? hahaha.

just cant get him out of my mind. i know its rlei boring and irritating to be reading abt the same person over and over again. but well. haiya. i dono la. rlei confused and vexed. i cant tell wad are his intentions from his actions. its like he means something else when i thought he meant this. haha. what the hell. but he's the very first guy that i even bother about. and still msg him eventhough i don think he is interested anymore. how thick skinned can i get. haha. he had better not cancel out on me on sat. i'll murder him. haha. then again, im scared of meeting him. like wad am i gg to say or how am i gg to react?! wad if he thinks im dumb, fat, ugly, boring, irritating, blahblah. haha shit. im thinking to much alr. at most, i'll let him do the talking. if not, we'll both shut up. muahahah.

[[ . ]]* |2:44 PM|

hmm i have no idea whether to feel happy or sad that he finally asked me out. haha. contradiction? yes. i msged him online yesterday
me: hey so late le, not slping ah?
him: hey i plannin to sms u. afta my field camp, we go out oki
me: haha when's ur field camp
him: dis coming tues
me: haha sure u free?
him: sure
haha i mean i shd be jumping for joy that he even asked me out. but i dont see or feel the sincerity there. its lik just asking me out for the sake of asking me out. yup.someone kill me. haha.no idea what to expect from him. well, telling myself, just be happy for the moment. worry later. =) mayb its cos he's leaving for taiwan on the 1stjune for 3 wks? haha then reli totally no contact. so he might want to tell me to give him up or tell me that he has already found someone else he likes. as in reli likes. haha. i feel like a clown. knows tt he's toying with me, but still like him. -_- anyway, im happy. for the time being. period.

went out with some of my sec sch frens today! haha we went to town instead of the east coast cycling trip we had planned earlier this wk. headed to coffeeclub express at taka for some drinks, den went to bk outside boarders and played bridge and taitee for like 2 hrs?! haha. after tt went to NYDC for dinner. im still so full i could puke now. rlei missed them people. =) it was still as fun and crazy eventhough there were only 4 of us there. will be waiting for ade to come back to spore before we head out for more fun! cant wait! haha

tmr will be back to the stupid office with a hyprocrite 'fren'. sian. she think's she's boss?! so what if big boss treated u and the other colleagues for lunch? u're just peanuts to them. don complain. to think i thought you would ask if i was invited also. not that i mind la. its just the thought of asking. wtf. asked u to help me being my micro to the repair centre, u couldnt bother less. fine! bitch. if u KNEW that i would need to have my warrenty card with the mirco for u to being to the repair centre, u dont tell me on FRIDAY at work and gg there on a SATURDAY. how the fuck am i supposed to pass u the bloody card?! asshole. u and ur stupid pathetic face. i hope you will just rot and die. ok, i shall not be so mean. just rot and decompose. yup. treetrunk. don tell me u want to diet. i'll show you tt i can slim down too. for the coming wk ahead, i'll just have milk and cheewy bars for lunch. im sure i will slim down. heeh! bleah.

gg to slp alr. damn tired. oh ya, kl, if ure reading this, im sorry i didnt want to tell u that i have a blog.. cos im afraid those ppl reading it will be bored to death reading abt the same thing over and over again. i hope u understand =) sorry darling.. anyway lets go out soon alrights! hahaha. missed u too!

[[ . ]]* |8:45 PM|

went out w kl today! hahaha.missed her loads man.though it was just me shopping and whining, she listened patiently! hahaha miss u darling! muacks. =) reali enjoy talking to her.it reli makes me happier cos i know tt she doesnt judge me on what i say. and i know that she's truthful and sincere. oh ya, and she loves to call me housefly.

we walked to OG and it was damn bloody crowded man.haha i bought 2 polo tops and 2 undies! haha so happy. see the crowd there, i feel so sian diao. don even feel like queueing up to try on the clothes. poor kl had to wait and be so patient with me.haha. sorry darling! hmm saw a few shuai ges there. heeh. then we headed to bugis village. one place where u can reli get lots of cheap stuff and accessories! my jeans were all bought there at reasonable prices. got myself a pair of loop earrings. again. haha. headed to bugis junction aft tt. hell lot of ppl as usual. we were just wondering ard looking at stuff. window shopping basically la. den headed to pastamania for dinner.omg.how sinful can we get! im supposed to be 'dieting' to slim down more than someone and instead im eating like nobody's business! i will be slimmer den you alrights! TREE TRUNK. took photos aft tt.screaming and shouting and making silly poses. haha it was fun cos i love to take photos! =)
it was impluse shopping aft tt.haha spent 50bucks at esprit!! something tt i'll nv do if i was with bestie. lol. material was not tt fantastic.but i just liked the design and all la. who cares! its not as if i spend 50bucks every other day right? its good to pamper urself once in a while ya. hahaha. so yup. i bought them. must think of uni days! need more clothes! haha just giving myself excuses to get more stuff. and i still havent bought what i wanted from bodyshop! arghs.more $ needed to be spent. =(

horoscope for 22may:
Everyone's had the experience of being infatuated, and everyone's known the mixed feelings that involves. One minute you're ecstatic, the next you're depressed -- and one phone call later, you're back up there on cloud nine. You're due to experience all those feelings once again, and, like the rest of us, you'll find them next to impossible to pass up, even if you know the end result may not be a house with a white picket fence.

23 may:
The Bottom Line:
Don't resort to retail therapy and let intense emotions run away with your wallet.
In Detail:
Willpower is right at the very top of the list of your sign's most famous qualities -- and it's a good thing too. Right about now, it will take everything you've got to stay on track, even if you know there's nothing you'd rather do. That means that temptation will be around each and every corner. Expect it, and not only will you not be surprised to see it coming, you'll be prepared to turn it down with confidence.

hahaha how true can my horoscope get man?! its like i just had some retail therapy and it costed me 100bucks. and im sure tt more of it will come. haha. help me!

then again, he's not tt a fantastic guy. why am i gg nuts over him?! he doesnt even bother to talk to me when im online. like wtf. fine la. if ure not interested in me, or alr interested in someone else, can u like just TELL ME?! instead of letting me guess. so u think its v fun?! *bish*

i hope i wun be so whiny abt things anymore. kl described me and guys as 'the number of tao huas that housefly attracts'. haha she's 'good' with words man. haha. but its rlei funny. =) singlehood is fun and i shd enjoy it. mayb i should remain single forever. wahahaha. tt'll be so fun. heeh. but hmm it'll be nice to have someone to give u attention and cares for u like u're his everything.. *dreams* wakey wakey! haha. talking to kl reli made me start thinking. is he rlei worth it? hmmm...

[[ . ]]* |12:05 AM|

surprisingly, STAR WARS episode 3 was overall not bad! i liked the effects and not forgetting the fact that there were 2 handsome guys acting. wahaha. eye candies. i feel that yoda was especially funny. not becasue of the way he looks or fight, but the way he talks and manages to knock out 2 guards with a 'fart'. haha he speaks weird. 'fight on, we must', 'there, we shall go' or something like tt. me and bestie were laughing our heads off. haha nuts rite. but we didnt care.

reached home abt 1245. couldnt wake up today.haha late for work! hmm as usual.

its friday again. and my wkend is packed! totally. cant wait to go out with them. then again, i have to waste money on these trips. haha.

there's this guy who is iritating me man. i dont reli like to talk to him. he's insensitive and insulting. he thinks its funny but i do not think so. arghs. what a no-brainer. *bleah don bother about such idiots. then, he come and tell me he has something important to tell me. no thanx. i think he's gg tp say tt he likes me or sth. not tt im bhb. but i think he has been dropping hints. haha well to bad. my heart's still with that person. heeh. so yup im rejecting people! heeh. sorry man.

cant wait to shop! spend money and buy lots of stuff. seriously need some retail therapy! wahahaha!

for the time being, let me have some time to think about him and the good times we had.. though it was through the phone only. hahaha. =)

[[ . ]]* |9:41 AM|

it feels very heart wrenching whenever i see him appear online and knowing that i cant talk to him. and there's no point hoping he'll talk to me cos i know he will never will.

i dont blieve tt he doesnt talk online. cos the very first time tt we talked online, we had so much to talk aobut! haha. and we really did enjoy the conversation, that was why we continued to msg and talk on the phone.

guess all these must come to an end soon. =)

[[ . ]]* |11:35 AM|

hmm early morning and im bored. supposed to be doing some registry thingy.but tt can wait. haha

same thoughts again. hmm know what? actually i AM willing to give him up. but i just want to know the reason why he just left me like that. im not asking him to be with me or what lor. he told me once, that i'll have a boyfriend within one month. and that was like 11 april tt week. pls look at tt bloody date now. i feel like telling him, yeah i will get a boyfriend, appparently it isnt you right? haha.

very bu gan xin lor. and i havent met him b4. great. spoilt my chances on tuesday.haha. i told him online: are u avoiding me? can u just tell me. (he didnt reply for like one hr. fine. ) 2nd msg: u know what? i feel like a fool. thanx for making me feel like one.

damn it. then again i think i was too rush. like since i have been waiting for 3 wks alr, might as well wait. something good might come out of it. haha in my dreams right? lol yaya.

he is a very nice guy actually. not the ah beng that i thought he was. haha. down-to-earth, sensible, fun loving, everything! he didnt appear to be the person i thought he would be. charming and knows what to say. gives me enough attention, not excessive. yup. makes the effort to call me almost every night during that one month. haha. i must have been dreaming. cos he has totally stopped all that and no contact with me alr. to think that i actually fell for him and tot of him as my boyfriend alr.

we called each other dear and darling. it sounded so right. haha and there was one msg he sent on the 26th april, morning dear, i love ya. hee
sweet right. haha. tt was the only time. hai. maybe i read too much into it.

whenever i see the drawing on the blog, i somehow wished tt it was me and him together, watching the stars from below. his arms around me. so sweet. hhahaha. *dreams* =)

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he was online again. and no surprises that he didnt msg me. well. wad can i say right. just try to live with it. hopes time will heal all wounds. haha. cliche i know. =)

sorry! to all my friends who had to tolerate my nonsense for these few days. theyre really rough. hai have to live with it! jiayou man!

i used to be the sensible person where friends will come to for advice and now i cant get myself out of this bloody shit. i need to wake up soon. help! some one wake me up . NOW! haha.

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