im happy! =)

just want to thank those who remembered my bday! =)

lydia, huijing, mae, xiuyi, delfine, sab, seah, teckwee, pris, weising, blub, zhaohui!
for the present. its lovely! hahah. so excited that i couldnt stop smiling when mae showed me. =)

dear, charlene, meichin, jiehua, laoer, laosan, mummy, anli, siyun, chuanming, kevin, yongsheng, joanne, kenny, kailin, lydia, huijing, weising, pris, kenneth, andy, kangwei, kennyxu, jingting, minghui, yiwei, alvin, bobby, titus, felix, zhaohui, connie, junwen. for the msges. =)

KENNY GOH! thanks for making the long distance call to wish me happy birthday! =)

and thanks dear for spending time with me. making me smile =)

[[ . ]]* |3:33 PM|

exams are coming. i dont know to be happy or sad.
happy cos i have 2 papers left, or
sad cos im going to leave hall soon.

its only 3 more weeks till moving out! how fast is that! to think that i have been staying in this room for the past 2 years! haha. i really love this room! i dont care if others think that its messy beyond hope or what. its the way i like it! haha. sigh. i have to sleep on my bed as much as possible. cos i think im going to miss it. =( miss having a room of my own and letting it be as messy as possible with no one to nag. ok, besides the occasional naggings from my neighbours. haha.

that would be another day with a post specially delicated to my room! B603. haha. ok im nuts. but after staying here for so long, you would somehow be attached to it RIGHT! haha. =)

the design test yesterday sucked. i took too long for one easy question and i screwed up the rest. good luck to me. i dont even want to discuss with the others. just walked away.

well. 10 more days till the end of my exams.

i cant wait.
i can wait.

roar. what a contradiction.

i hope to have more freedom after my exams instead of not being able to do this and that, being restricted once again. it sucks. really, it does. esp when ur mum's naggings are like a broken record. of cos, she means well. BUT... ya. haha.

study time! its already the 17th of april. =(

[[ . ]]* |4:35 PM|

im so excited! i borrowed an MP3 from my daddy just now. realised that all my OLD songs were inside!!! those from the year 2002-2004. haha. it wasnt alot, but those were my favourite songs back then! wahhh. i am in love with the songs now. haha.

and it doesnt seem like i have an exam tomorrow. hahaha.

*smiles*

[[ . ]]* |9:03 PM|

managed to ALMOST finish studying for the test on wednesday. =) i should be studying out almost everyday from now onwards. its not productive studying in my room with the laptop on. and you have company to study with, even though they always arrow me to suan.

time to buck up. study hard!

my freaking mp3 is spoilt. bloody hell.

listening to the instrumental - ' The Moment ' by Kenny G

somehow, it brings out emotions inside me. i have no idea why.

thanks dear for accompanying me.

i cant wait for exams to end.

which means im getting another year older.

sigh.

im tired.

i hope i will have some nice dreams tonight.

maybe about some fairytale.

where everyone lives happily ever after.

[[ . ]]* |12:22 AM|

alot of things have been running through my mind. everything. i wonder when will it stop.
maybe i am that lousy. i should just keep quiet.

went to sentosa with my ahma, sisters, maid and my aunt's family! haha. it wasnt much cos my ahma cant really walk. it was a drive around sentosa. i tell u, sentosa cove (is it?) is damn pretty! and the houses there are freaking expensive! damn. there was one which costed 8million! my uncle works at sentosa so he could bring us ard. then again, ure paying for the very nice sea view. =) if only i could live there *dreams* hmmm, however, i think i would rather spend the money on something else. MILLIONS of dollars mind you. *boo

seiously im damn lazy to upload photos. will do them when im more free and when i feel like it.
sentosa trip
D&D
huijing's bday
haha. so many!

going to buck up man. think studying with kenny they all will be helpful. but im afraid of asking questions. i dont know why. i just do. i feel that my question might be stupid. or maybe they'll think that at this point of time and i still dont know the basic fundmentals?! haha. stupid me right. then of cos they'll say that there's no such thing as a stupid question, its stupid not to ask. sigh. i better open my golden mouth and start asking questions. be alittle more think skinned. HELP!

im very glad that i have a smartypants daddy who can help me with my studies. dont know what will i do without you. sigh. sorry to have let you down so many times. i feel bad. i have put in alot more effort this semester. but if i cant make it, i really dont know what to do, how to face you. im sorry daddy, but i will try my best. really. really. thank you for believing in me.

im not staying in hall next semester, that is IF i can still study in nus. i think its a wise choice. really. i can come back and spend time with my ahma, spend time with my friends, maybe not as much time with weijie, but its still better than nothing right. i should have made this choice 2 semesters ago. well.

you have to weigh the pros and cons about hall life. friends just stay a few steps away, gossips, joy and laughter. but then again, what you see might not be what you get.
how would you know if they are just putting on a facade?
how would you know if they are talking behind ur back?
how would you know if they are gossipping?
how would you know if they wun backstab you?
how would you know if they are true to you, true friends?
how would you know ... ?

well i can say, i dont know. of cos, not everyone is bad la. there are nice people there of cos. just that maybe i dont want to risk. i dont know. part of me is glad that the semester is ending soon, part of me cant bear to leave the room that i have been staying for 2 years! =( sigh.

sounds cliche, but so many people walk in and out of your life, but just how many of them leave footprints in them? haha. you may laugh, but think about it, how many people are really always there for you when ure in need.

i really need to study even harder. pull my socks until its knee high.

i feel rather sad after reading jiehua's post. i dont know what to say. just that i would try my best to spend even more time with my ahma. talk to her. be there for her. she always says that she's alright. but i highly doubt so. she's in pain but she would rather keep to herself than to inform us. i dont want to accept the fact that she is old. i really dont want too. but someday, i would have to. eventually.


ahma i love you! =)

random incoherrent thoughts. dont mind me. as usual.

time to mind my own business. tired.

[[ . ]]* |1:15 AM|

project finished. damn. suddenly i feel like i havent done much. stupid me. =(

in love with this song at the moment. =)

That's When I Love You - Aslyn

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

No matter what

this song is very sweet right! haha. its on repeat on my player. =)
should go listen to it.

i dont know what is going on. maybe its just me.

cant stop listening to the song. haha. im obsessed with it.
at least for a few days. =)

[[ . ]]* |8:55 PM|

its 530 AM! hahaha. i think if i sit here a little while longer, i can see the sunrise alr. haha. and the last time i stayed up so late was cos of the little hiccup that had happened between weijie and i.

im glad that the stupid project is almost done. hmm even if it isnt, it HAS to be by tomorrow anw. well. there goes a good grade, there goes my chance in staying on. well no one is to blame except us. we started late, what u reap is what u sow. so i guess we didnt sow much, so we cant expect much also. =( stupid me. BAH.

i have so many photos to upload! but i have no time. maybe over the weekends? haha. yups. huijing's 21st birthday, shears DnD and other random photos. too many! roar.

im happy that we're getting along much better! =) thanks alot dear for the effort put in. i know i cant be demanding at times but well. bear with me! *hugs*

to lydia,

know you must be feeling down. and not wanting to tell us cos u feel that we will only tell u what u shd do instead of listen. sorry for not listening. but u know we dont harbour any bad intentions. we just want u to be happy. maybe we're doing it the wrong way. but we will try. we will always be here for you. huijing, me and the other short wingers. if u need anything, we will de there ok? talk to us. we will try our very best to help. u know that.

anyway, hope u will be feeling much better by the time ure reading this. soon i hope.

we love you! =)

[[ . ]]* |5:30 AM|