It would have been our 27th this 27th.

[[ . ]]* |12:11 PM|

My heart sank.
I felt like I couldn't breathe.
I should stop dreaming and wake up.
But why is it so difficult?
I'm tired.

When I'm awake, I think about it.
When I'm asleep, I dream about it.
This has to stop.

When I saw the time on the swatch stop, my heart skipped a beat, I almost cried.

Please let me overcome this.

[[ . ]]* |1:08 AM|

Haven’t done anything for the past 2 days. Out with some of the BN people in the afternoon and had a birthday celebration in the evening yesterday. Damn. But it was fun meeting up with the people.

It was raining so heavily this morning that I didn’t want to get out of bed. But I promised my ahma that I will be going home for lunch. Missed her a lot. Daddy left for china again this afternoon. Sigh. I miss my laopeh!

I want to do so many things!
I want to go shopping.
I want to buy shorts.
I want to buy nail polishes.
I want to buy tops.
I want to have Jack’s Place set lunch.
I want to have Fish & Co’s baked salmon.
I want to have Ben&Jerry’s ice cream.
I want to have Vilage’s creeps and waffles.
I want to have my ahma’s cooking everyday!
I need to start studying.
I need to start doing my tutorials.
I need to start watching my webcasts.
I need to wake up from my slumber.

Going back to hall soon and start camping in the library.
Wake up, bathe, breakfast, library, lunch, library, dinner, room, sleep.
The cycle repeats.

[[ . ]]* |12:10 AM|

Talked with Lydia for almost 2 hours last night! Haha. I really miss talking to her. It was late and I couldn't laugh and talk loudly. :( I don’t want neighbours knocking on my door. Haha.

Thanks for calling and spending your precious sleeping time talking to this nut here. Haha. Just missing hall days.
Miss the past where she was just 5 steps away from me.
Miss talking and laughing loudly like we’re the only people on earth.
Miss nua-ing on her bed as and when I like.
Miss trying to squeeze her pink pig.
Miss cooking supper and then complain we’re fat.
Miss the non-stop MSN-ing even though we’re one room apart.
Miss whining and complaining.
Miss being vain and doing mani and pedi.
Thanks for being rabbit’s bff.
Thanks for always helping us in the past.
Thanks for just being there for me.
Thanks for not laughing at me being a crybaby.

Haha. Just feeling thankful to have her as such a good friend. Really. :)

Don’t forget our promise ah! Haha. We were discussing the future of our kids. YES, even without a husband. Haha. So now, our motivation is to get an ideal husband. Lol.

My daughters will have big boobs and medium sized eyes. Her sons will have super small eyes that my daughter will love. Not forgetting, he must be older than my daughter, and not be anything starting with the letter ‘R’. If they get married, their kid’s eyes wouldn’t be as small as the father’s. After which, we would buy a huge house and all of us will stay there.

Ok it was late into the night and we were talking cock. But it was FUN talking cock! Hahah. We couldn’t stop laughing. This time, we ARE going KTV next week. Haha. The only person whom I don’t mind going out of tune when I’m singing. I think we will lose our voice man. Lol. I can't wait! Haha.

i love my PTL :)



[[ . ]]* |11:37 AM|

I think I’m PMS-ing. Again.

A movie that doesn't stop playing.

Last time I spent the night there.
Last time I talked to him.
Last time I hugged him.
Last time I kissed him.
Last time I cried in front of him.
Last time I dialed his number.
Last time I messaged him.
Last time he held my hand.
Last time he sent be home.
Last time he said bye to me.
Last time he cried with me.
Last time he looked me in the eye.
Last time we saw each other.
Last time ...
So many 'last time's.

Can’t my mind stop playing?

Impulse buys.
It only fills the void in my heart temporarily.
I should be saving instead.

I’m tired. I should head to bed.

[[ . ]]* |12:16 AM|

Saturday was well spent! :)

Woke up at 8 and headed to the library to study! Haha. I’m actually studying on a Saturday. Went through about half the lecture notes for Fluid Mechanics. Continued with some parts of Heat Transfer. Miss Lim will not be stupid anymore!

Left about 330 and went back to slack in my room. Got ready and headed to Marina Square for dinner at Kenny Rogers! Haven’t dined there in a longggg time. The macaroni and cheese, sweet corn and muffin were still as good. That satisfied my stomach! Haha. Wanted to get the pair of black patent heels at C&K, but was strongly discouraged. Damn. They had it in my size can! :( sadness. Sigh hope a nicer pair will come along.

I want to go shopping! I want to get a nice pair of heels, the pretty off white big bag I saw at Zinc, shorts from Bugis Village, more OPI nail polishes, more shoes! Suddenly in love with footwear and bags. Hahah. Grant me my wish please!!

A few items that I have recently received are my AE polka dotted flats and threadless shirts! 3 more shirts to go including the Grouchy shirt. Waited almost 2 months for that particular shirt and its still NOT here.

Sigh, so many things to do tonight. Wash my HUGE load of clothes, mop the floor, clean the table, arrange those chapalang things everywhere, tutorial, and of course, watching tv!

One more week till recess week. I have to work harder!

[[ . ]]* |3:17 PM|

Super tired! Hmm we lost 2-1 in the IBG volleyball finals just now. Close match! Last set was 13-15, but it was a game well played. cos only 3 of us knew how to play as compared to the other team. and best of all, I got to exercise! hahaha.

Met yilin and yongsheng last Saturday to study, but I couldn’t get much in. It was fun catching up with them though. Was very surprised when Yilin messaged me in the afternoon, cause she had changed her number and none of us knew of it! Hope there will be more study sessions soon.

Went to town with JiaYing yesterday! Haha. We actually only see each other only once a year, but I am very happy that we can still maintain the strong friendship that we have. 16 years. We shopped around Far East before heading to Pasta Cafe for lunch. the A La Salmon with pesto(?) cream sauce was very nice. Should try it. Saw this off white big tote bag at FE, very pretty! but i put it down after i saw the price tag. -.- and the pair of heels i liked at C&K was sold out! Damn. Anyway, we finally caught Ratatouille! Emile was very cute can! Hahaha. The trailer was out many months ago and was supposed to watch it with someone else..


I love this picture.

After which, JiaYing and me went to the neoprint shop at Heerens and helped ourselves to the machines, using our cameras of cos. Will upload photos when she has sent me hers. :)



I know I’m slow, but I just started to love the song by
Fergie – Big(er) Girls Don’t Cry.
Like some parts of the lyrics. Somehow relates childhood to love life. Cute. :)

It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

Time to move on and forget. Trying hard!

Another week is almost over. ByeBye week 5. Time, please slow down. I need time to catch up with my lectures, tutorials and LABS!

Wish me luck!

[[ . ]]* |10:11 PM|

What you are now was what I had always wanted you to be.
I am glad you have found another.
Maybe you’ll treat her much better than you did to me.
It is time I put things behind me.
To try to untie the dead knot in my heart.
Time to wake up from my dream.
Or, just continue my slumber.

[[ . ]]* |7:30 PM|

i feel stupid. or maybe even more true, i AM stupid.

what's new?

[[ . ]]* |10:15 AM|

new addition to my room! tigger!



super tired this week la! had a heat transfer test yesterday. was studying the whole week for it. really felt very worried as i didnt want to fail again. damn sian one lor. but im glad its over and i hope i got the right answer! haha. then again, if miss lim can get the answer, im sure everyone else in the LT got it right too.

played handball for IBG last night. wahh it was super tiring la! the last time i exercised or even played any sports on court was in january. and not being able to get sub-ed out was even worse. i have never played for 2 whole sets before. my block only had like 4 people, so we got to ask girls from other blocks to help out. we won, by penalty. haha. and i am still aching all over!

met lydia outside LT7a before lecture yesterday. haha. haven't seen her in a long time and we're still as loud. will be heading for kbox next friday! i miss those impromptu ktv sessions in the past.

woke up for breakfast twice this week! something i have never ever done in shears. thanks to my neighbours, they really wake up early. so for 2 mornings, they bang on my door at 830. haha. damn funny la all of them. and im the eldest there. why aren't there anymore tigers here?!

too much of staying in school. i want to go gai gai!!

then again, shopping online does help. haha. all in 2 weeks.
3 threadless tees, 2 for myself, 1 for laoer.
1 pair of shoes from gojane.
1 tee from AE.
1 pair of shorts.

i really dont want to look at the balance in my account. i would have to eat grass for the rest of the month. or i'll just stock up on maggie mee and save on lunch. hahaha.

time to tidy my room! my table is in a huge mess. textbooks, notes, rough paper, stationary all over. no thanks to the test. so much to do during the weekend. i hope i am able to complete some. got to start playing round with solid works! haha. which reminds me that i have to email the prof.

another day in the humid room of mine.

[[ . ]]* |1:48 PM|

back from the library. surprised how i managed to stay there since 10 plus until about 6. haha. the last time i stayed so long in the library was last semester studying for exams. heat transfer sucks! but im trying to get it right. wish me luck for my test man.

got to know some people here. well, im like the eldest la. all rabbits and dragons. they're quite nice and friendly. there's this girl who reminds me of lydia! haha. really. she laughs super loud and gets along well with everyone also. its like every corner we turn too, she'll meet a friend. oh, and she called herself lydia in the past. haha. its to have met her, though she's from another block. kinda miss shears and the people, but i guess i better start getting used to staying here.

a song i haven't heard in a long time played on my mp3 while studying. surprised. don't know what the title is though. its a track from 200 pounds beauty, the part where the main lead sings this super sad song near the ending part of the show. i started to stare into space. and the next thing i knew, i was tearing.. it brought too many memories back, and it doesn't help much when its a slow song.. its really a very very touching song. i couldn't stop crying when she sang this song the last time i watched the movie.

Kim Ah Joong - Byul

The wind knocks on the window
Over the room as small as me
Twinkling stars so beautiful
Filling the room with love

Don't be hurt
Caressing my wound gently
Embracing me to sleep
Too hurt for my legs to walk
Eyes so blurry with tears
Before love
Never meant for me
I will keep on smiling

Like those stars embroidered in my eyes
I will love you forever

Crawling to me like a dream
My little star up high
Dazzling my eyes
Shining brightly
Falling on my shoulders

Don't be sad anymore
Holding my hands tightly
Caressing my wound
It embraces me warmly
Too hurt for my legs to walk
Eyes so blurry with tears
Before love
Never meant for me
I will keep on smiling
Dear moments with you
Buried deep in my heart

Like those stars embroidered in my eyes
I will love you forever

i can still picture the events that happened that night.
every detail still plays vividly in my mind.
events before the movie at 9
like how i was trying my best not to laugh at the funniest parts
like how i was crying non stop at the ending
famished cos we didn't had dinner and it was already 10 plus.

i think I'm going to watch the show later.

[[ . ]]* |6:59 PM|