Yesterday I said that I was still learning to let go. Now, I cannot be bothered. Deleted my MSN. I am not stupid not to realize it. Stop acting like you are very pitiful and you need sympathy from others. They might not even know the whole story! I admit I was wrong at some points, but so were you! Well, at least I’m very sure they didn’t know that you called me LAN JIAO BIN. So much for being Mr-Nice-Guy. HA. Wake up please.

I’m so over it.

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Saw this quiz on Jocelin's blog and decided to take it.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		9
Physical Touch:		8
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Receiving Gifts:		1

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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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Though I love to receive gifts, I do feel that spending quality time together is also important. Not forgetting communication between the couple. And who doesn’t love hugs! I know I do. It makes me happy. :) From the looks of the test, guess I'm a difficult girl to please, but it is good to have everything in moderation. Well, at least you know you don't have to spend too much money on gifts!

It has been more than one week and I’m glad that I’m still coping fine expect for the occasional hiccups once in a while. Time flies.

Though I am smiling on the outside, does not mean I’m smiling on the inside. The hurt and disappointment cannot be forgotten just like that. 两年说长不长，说短不短。All the memories, all the times spent together. It will still be part of my memories. Still learning to let go.

Being able to erase everything in just 7 days just goes to show my importance to him. I was never important in the first place! Cos someone else is. Words are cheap. So cheap that it is worthless.

Read Charlene’s blog. I can relate to what she says. How true.

Soon, Chinese New Year will come and be gone before you know it.

Ahma cooked Lor Mee last Saturday and I had guests! Charlene, Xing Yi, Jon, Ken and Marc, but Marc didn’t get to taste the Lor Mee though cos he left half way. Anyway, they loved the food and my ahma loved the compliments. Hehe. No la, she is happy when people love her food. Sat around and chatted. Jon is a nice guy, very out-going and friendly. XingYi and Jon is a cute couple. Haha. Headed to Bugis after that but didn’t manage to buy anything. Sadness.

Another round of shopping this weekend before CNY is here!

Steamboat next Monday. :)

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10:33 pm

ANOTHER SURPRISE FROM PTL AND AUNTYORE JUST NOW! hahaha. I was super shocked to see them standing outside my room la! They were trying to hide in my room to scare me. lol. Anw I'm super happy and i feel so loved! :) Headed to West Coast Macs for dinner. Time seem to pass very fast when you have great company and having fun. Wish time could slow down so we could have spent more time together! hahah. I LOVE BOTH OF YOU!

Thanks for taking time out to have dinner with me. Luckily don't have to eat lousy hall food. Haha. Really appreciate what you girls are doing for me. I will be strong ok! :) Thanks!! What would life be without both of you!

L.O.L



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PTL surprised me last evening! Haha. I was super happy la! Didn’t expect her to drop by. :) Headed to Vivo for dinner at Sushi Teh. Ordered salmon sashimi, soft shell crab, meat gyoza, unagi sushi and that big prawn with mango and roe on the top! The food was damn good! Wanted to get some B&Js after dinner but I took too long to buy my top. Sorry!!



Thanks girl for being so patient with me. Haha. I know I can be quite mafan while choosing which one to buy. Anyway, I love you! You’re the best la! Hahaha.

Sometimes, I really miss staying in Shears. I miss the laughter and company of the people. Lydia and Xiuyi with their ‘yi tuan rou’ and ‘***’, Mae busy online shopping and busy running into rooms gossiping, Delfine and her vulgarities, HuiJing and her slowness in everything. I still remembered once where I was so down, Lydia Mae HuiJing accompanied me to Fong Seng, cracked jokes and made me laugh. It really cheered me up a lot. Though I don't really show it, but everyone is deeply appreciated. :)




But here at TH, I’m mostly alone in my room, self-entertaining. Don’t really feel like talking to the small ones. And sometimes, I am just not in the mood to entertain. Trainings have also become a chore.

Well, one thing I know Pris will be very happy to hear, I’VE STARTED ON MY TUTORIALS ALREADY! Hahaha. I’ll join u in the library next week onwards ok.

Laoer’s results will be out on Thursday. Sorry that I can’t accompany you to collect. All the best ok! With lots of love from your lao da.

Life’s been good! and I'm sure it will get better. :)

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Sometimes, it would be better to let go than to hold on tightly to something you know will not work out.

NO ONE, with the exception of my daddy, has pointed a finger right in my face and shy of a slap. This I will not accept. Tolerance and accommodation was to the limit. I could give in to almost everything but not when someone uses force on me. The look in the eyes, the body language says all.

The disappointment I could not bear.

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School has been quite alright for now. Tutorials start next Monday so I guess I’ll have to start making the library my next best friend. I will do my best to pull up what’s left of my pathetic CAP.

Met up with Charlene MeiChin and JieHua last Tuesday for dinner at ‘Out of the Pan’. Food was good and so was the company. :) JieHua was as usual, the last to reach. Haha. Now we know why he was never a guy in our eyes. After which we headed to Ben & Jerry’s for ice cream! Haha. Catching up was good. I really miss the old days. Another dinner next Tuesday to celebrate Char’s birthday.

I miss LOL! Lydia’s having IA and aunty ore busy with IHG. Haha. I think I’m the only slack one around. Let’s meet up for dinner soon ya. :)

Chinese New Year is around the corner and I haven’t gotten my clothes yet. I guess after all of us has grown up, it doesn’t seem as ‘fun’ as compared to when we were young. But I’m looking forward to more gathering with friends. I would love to recycle my clothes, it saves a lot of money!

Mummy has been very nice. She paid for my online shopping. Hehe. :p 2 bras and 3 tops for $69.48. Cheap cheap! The numbers in my back account has been declining. I really need to save.

And lastly, I LOVE MY AHMA! Haha. She is damn funny. I called back last Friday to ask how she is. The next sentence she said was ‘AIYAH I’M WATCHING TV LA. DON’T DISTURB ME. I DON’T WANT TO TALK TO YOU ALREADY. WHY SO MANY DAYS NV CALL BACK?!’ All in Hokkien. Well, at least I know someone misses me at home.

Randomness.

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A brand new year, a brand new start. I hope.

1st Jan was laoer's birthday! and like every other year, my mum cooked and bought alot of food for the relatives and friends. laoer had to, when we were about to cut the cake my dad's students bought, go out with her friends. -.- but anw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the biggest fattest irritant in my life! hahaha



Tuesday, FINALLY WENT CYCLING WITH PTL! :) hahaha. we have been talking about it since months back and never seem to act on it. miss lim came to pick me up from my house, to ECP for MACs breakfast! havent had that in a long time. just sat around talking kok and gossipping. haha. i really miss those times. after which we rented our bikes and off we went!




cycled to bedok jetty before resting our aching butts. took photos. lydia's phone is good! that plane was so far away, but we still managed to take a picture of it. haha. i had a great time with her and i think we should meet more often! come back to school soon! hahah. love ya!

met up with the 4BN people to celebrate chuanming and yilin's birthdays. haha. it was as usual fun with lots of laughter. dont have the pictures with me yet though. and we're heading to sentosa next sunday! haha. cant remember when was the last time i was at sentosa lor. i badly need a tan.

bidding sucks! i hope i will be able to get my modules this semester. and i have to score well for all of them. have to start studying hard!

finally gotten my new phone. haha. it was only $68 after using the voucher, and I paid for it. :( sometimes i wonder how come my dad can easily spend afew hundred buying something that he already has, and refuses to pay for my phone.

i know i suck at my studies in uni, but at least give me credit for being able to get into a JC and also into a UNI. yes, i had to appeal, but so what. at least i did study to get some decent grades. i didn't need help to get into a JC, i didn't need help if i had just gone to NTU instead. sometimes i wonder why am i studying so hard for. ask me to be humble. yup. next time, i'll just shut up. cos whatever said is/will be right.

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