as usual. im supposed to be studying and doing my tutorials. but what am i doing herE? haha. well going to try to do my math tutorial tonight. its still early. =) that day, he agreeded that it was his fault. haha or rather, partly his fault. i was sniffing and tearing all the way from nus to bugis. haha how fun was that. but yup. everything is fine now. it had better be after all the liquid i have wasted. haha

dear just became 19 on 22th feb! yeah. haha now he's the same age as me. lol. actually i think i didnt even plan anything. felt bad. will give him a surprise during our first year anniversary. haha. we watched cassnova at lido. it was a nice show. haha sweet and funny. =) walked around town after that. as usual, i wanted to look at stuff, then realising that it was his birthday i turned away. haha. but he was nice enough to sort of shop with me. went to heerens to take the photo sticker! haha our very first one. not bad leh. loved it. =) headed for dinner at marche's after that. ordered the usual but with soft shell crabs today! it was soo nice! lol.



greedy us! wanted to eat the mango waffle!!! but we were too full. haha we have small stomachs. lol. food was goooodd.



ya that benben gave him his present already, opened, and passed it back to me. asked me to keep for him first. -_-'' he said he liked the present. he had better even if he didnt. haha. if not i'll bite. muahaha. =)

it was a simple and sweet day out.

i love things simple and sweet. =)

DnD next friday night. haha oh! i bought a skirt from this fashion for only 20 bucks! not bad la. quite alright. it falls at my knees. black in colour! think im going to wear the silver top and that skirt, with heels and maybe a handbag. yup. simple. hahaha. anyway its not like its going to be something grand like prom in JC. then again, prom wasnt even fun. haha we'll see about that. =)

got to go and study! must buck up le! jiayou! =)

our 8 months is coming. time really flies! i cant believe its 8 months already. haha. if i tell him that, he'll say, ya every month tell me that, how many times u want to tell me? haha. true. just happy that we're together cannot MEH.

.smiles.

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i have NO mood to study at all. ZERO ZIP. i just threw my biology textbook on the bed.

i am tired. i really am. i dont know why. i just am.

somehow it is all my fault. i just want to apologise again. maybe i am apologising too much that it doesnt have that effect there already. but ya. i am sorry.

disappointed was what you said you felt at that time. sorry for not discussing it with you. i really thought i did. apparently not. i dont know what to say. is it the way i say things that sounds sacarstic? well, it wasnt meant to be. i just want everything to be happy and joyful. maybe im trying too hard. one good question u stated, i dun understand why u are so upset abt mi gettin angry. haha i wanted to break down right at that instant. i dont know how to put my thoughts into words.

just feeling kinda depressed right now. then i think about the facade i have to put on later. i will try to be happy and smile. socalise with the people there.

please let these all be over. im not sure if u read my blog. but if u do. i am really sorry. i guess i just havent been considering about your feelings. sorry dear.

maybe i should flood my room again when i come back later. then again, i might be walking alone. somewhere. haha. let me continue being a tap for now.

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haha im having 3 tests this week. tmr friday and sat. and what am i doing now? blogging instead of studying. just felt like blogging before i forget. haha

recieved roses from junlong and roungtzu! and gerbera from lydia and huijing! thanks people. they bought for many people and i happened to be one of the lucky few. flowers are nice. =)

anyway valentines day was simple and sweet for me. =) went to his house. he cooked pasta while i studied. cos he didnt want me to help him. after dinner, there was still dessert! yeah! haha OREO CHEESECAKE! omg. it was sooo sweet! it was really very nice. and of cos sweet. as in it tasted very sweet. haha but it was a very good first attempt i must say. =) thanks for the effort dear. i really appreciate it alot. it is the sweetest valentine's day in my 19 years of life.




greedy mimi eyeing the cake


greedy me



after eating that, another piece at night, his family too, there was still THREE-QUARTERS of the cake left! can u imagine how big it was. but it was filled with lots of oreos! =) yeah. haha

just felt that it was a day filled with warmth.

everything was simple and sweet. my favourite. =)

thanks alot dear for the sweet day u planned =)

back to studying. siann...

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had our finals against EH last friday. we won 3-0! yeah! first for IHG. the guys team also came in first. it was a happy ending. i didnt think i played well. but i managed to serve all the balls over and there was only this one very beautiful spike i spiked. one which landed right at the corner of the 3 meter line. =) it was nice. haha. blocked afew balls. but nothing much also. after everything. janet called and said that it was one of my better games i had played. thanks. it means alot to me. =)

went to chuanming's house on saturday. played mahjiong and all. nothing much. just some catching up with the old friends. =)







in the end, left the 4 of us. haha

sunday. went visiting in the morning. then went to watch 'I Not Stupid Too' with weijie.

visiting was fun this year. haha cos my sisters, daddy and i were taking stupid pictures. haha its damn cute la! =)



wanted to catch the 435 show but left the front 2 rows. no thanks. so we decided to watch the 7 pm show. had like 4hours to spare. but i have no idea why, whenever im with him, time seems to pass very fast. =)

had some quarrels. but somehow it was all my fault. sat at the food court after getting the tickets. talked for about one whole hour. he was the main one talking la. haha. but yup. i guess i have been taking things for granted. like whatever he says, just goes on one ear and out the other. NOT all the time of course! haha. but yup. guess im at fault all the time. im still learning. give me some time. one question he asked. 'you ask yourself, in the 7 months we were together, are there any things that i did to make u angry or unhappy. and were there things you did that made me unhappy.' ponders. ok fine. yes. does wearing short skirt count? haha. even when i was home, everything just kept replaying in my mind. couldnt get it out. =( at least he's understanding. i guess he did really put in alot of effort into this relationship. thanks dear.



finally got the photos for the IVP finals! =) haha.







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If a girl cries in front of u, it means that she can't take it anymore.
If u take her hand, she would stay with u for the rest of ur life.
If u let her go, it will be hard for her to go back to being herself with you once again.

A gal wont cry easily,except in front of the person whom she loves the most,
she becomes weak.
A gal wont cry easily,only when she loves u the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u, please hold her hands firmly,
coz she's the one who is willing tostay with u 4 for the rest of ur life.
Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u, please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision, u'L ruin her life.

When she cries right in front of u,
When she cries bcoz of u, Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.
Which other girl has cried with pure sincerity,
In front of u, And bcoz of u?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt n agony have bcome toobig a burden to be kept inside.

Guys, Think about it, If a gal cries her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only u will know the answer to it.

Do consider it, Coz one day,
It may b too late for regrets, It may b too late to say "im sorry".
To my friends, Ponder this message seriously.
Maybe in ur life, she's the only one who loves u the most.
Remember this lesson.

took this paragragh from joycelyn's blog. true right? hahaha. most of it at least. =)

yeah! NUS women's volleyball team are the champions for IVP 2005/2006. the finals was against TP. won them 3-0. everyone was very happy. went for dinner and kbox after that. it was damn fun. haha. took pictures of course. will wait for jiawen to send before posting them up.have to say that this team is a great team and i am very happy to be able to be part of it. =) eventhough i know that i am not very good at it but at least i got a chance to play. during the final debrief, heather was saying that this is a very supportive team. cant agree more. everyone seems to click well with one another and having janet as our coach, its really a different experience. off court, she's like a friend to us. joking and making fun of us. haha. fun. oh and it was her birthday yesterday too. =) pictures speak a thousand words. so wait for them to be uploaded! =)

we have been together for 7 months. long time. but i am sure many more months will come. thank you dear for always being there for me. loving me for who i am and not hiam-ing me in anyway. giving in to me whenever possible. thank you. endless thank yous. haha.

i love you dear! =)

this week passed in a blink of an eye. its already chinese new year eve! and just now after my dental appointment, i still went shopping at OG. haha. bought a demin skirt. its only $21.50! it was having 50% off that rack! and a shorts for $7.50 not bad a deal for both. bum equpitment. wanted to buy more. but bought too many clothes for CNY already. must start saving. arghs. temptation is always there. my mum will faint if she knew i bought those. and last sunday, during charlene's birthday, i bought alot of things too. forever21 top for about 22 bucks, skirt from pepperplus 20bucks only! and something else i forgot. haha. i think i really have too many clothes. but i cant help myself. haha.

had IHG semi finals against TH last night. haha. we won 3-1. i couldnt serve many balls cos of my shoulder. sorry people. managed to block afew balls. haha not bad la. and saved some too. having finals tonight against EH. i really hope we will win. the gold seems so near. both guys and girls are playing against EH tonight for the GOLD. =) haha. jiayou teams! =)

chinese new year passed in a blink of an eye. its already chu 6. soon it will be over. this year's red packet collection is pathetic! so few! arghs. and every year. i will ask my mum the same thing, how much did u bao for ***. and its always 5 times of what she gives each of us. how pathetic can she get. close relative leh. at least a 10 bucks right. the ratio is not right and i have been telling her that. haha. nvm. i will make sure next year will not be like that! HA.

misslim couldnt sleep AT ALL last night. first time ever since i moved into hall. i have no idea why. maybe its cos of the red wine we all had. haha. but ya its dman bad la. i dont think i have much idea of what i had just typed. but ya. haha. going back to sleep soon. must rest well for tonight! haha.

time will be spent on more constructive things and to whoever who needs me rather then spending it on some others.

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happy new year people! i will take care of myself. thanks for ur concern. =) meet up soon! esp jingyu. sorry didnt have time to meet up during december. rlei busy with trainings. trainings and matches will end tonight. IHG has come to an end for me.
lydia! thanks for always being a few steps away from me. so i can talk to u. haha
mummy ah. we oso must meet up soon ah. don bother about your son. hahaha. take care people! =)

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