a blog is a place where one can express one's feelings right? so maybe i shall.

*SNAP*

from being excited for something that was going to happen, to being totally down and not looking forward to it. why? cos it doesnt mean anything already. and that i do not take it seriously. but that wasnt my point of view. it was THOUGHT to be.

i always am the one at fault somehow. why?
i contridict what i say.
i cant remember what has been said.
i cant remember what i had just said if someone asks me to repeat.
i just cant.
i am insensitive.
i am inconsiderate.
i do not appreciate the things people do for me.
etc etc
and the list goes on...

not being able to remember what someone said is bad. cos it might be important, or not. and it might be important when using it in an arguement. haha. ya stupid reasoning but you'll nv know when it might come in handy!

so yup. i have concluded why i always lose when in an arguement. that i am always at fault. really. i have nothing to say in defence for myself. will just have to learn to live with it.

guess if anything wrong happens next time, i'll just say sorry. be the first one to apologise. so maybe things will be not so strained.

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on a brighter note. i happy today. now, metal teeth no more! haha. mouth feels kind of empty. haha. =) yeah! but i forgot to take lots of photos of the before and after. haha.

attended my aunt's wedding lunch. she looks soooo pretty! tall and slim! i want to get married too! aiyah. mayb within the next 10 years! aiyah im going to start dreaming.


my monkey sisters

anyway its a saturday night and im along in the short wing! its quite quiet. its nice to study. i hope i will study. hahaha. 9 more days to my examinations. im going to give it all. i have to do well this semester.

going to study soon. after i have eaten my chicken rice! haha

[[ . ]]* |9:32 PM|

saturday night was fun! hahaha in its own way.

got to talk to shen jiaolian after like more than one year?! hahaha. cos TP was there to play against NYJC. so yup. haha. he passed to phone to him. haha i really miss training days! seriously. hahah. especially those at sambawang. sigh.
anw he's as cute as usual. haha. i was like, 'jiaolian! ji de wo ma!' and he went like,'orhh cenying ah cenying. haha qiang bi ma. dang ran ji de!'
chatted awhile. asked how he was and stuff. =) he asked me to go down and play when im free la! but ya. i dont know anyone there. and i guess things would be awkward if i went anyway. how one incident could lead to such a situation now. sigh.
chatted abit with mr tam too! hahaha. mr tam is damn funny! haha. really miss them both! =) would want to go down and play if i had the chance. but well. haha. maybe i'll go down and visit mr tam one of these days. since he's always in school anw.

had dinner with xiuyi, sab and rongtzu at clementi. then headed down to ntuc! haha. we were nuts. haha grabbed alot of stuff when we saw that it was a buy one get one free deal. lol. damn funny. i bought a new toothbrush! and we have iceeecreammm =)

while putting the stuff into the fridge, we xin xue lai chao and decided to clean the fridge, then decided that we might as well clean the whole pantry! hahaha. it was disgusting! pukes. all the rotton fruits, expired milk and food. PUI. and all sorts of other rubbish! and somebody has been eating my chocolates! BAH. ya anw we threw almost 3/4 of the stuff in the fridge away. hahaha. cleaned the shelves, scrubed the insides, splashed water. now, the fridge looks super clean! muahaha. and we used the hose to spray water everywhere! hahaha. floor, windows, clean the tabletop. wahh it was fun. but it soon turned to tiredness. haha.

bottomline is, WE HAVE A CLEAN PANTRY NOW! and whoever messes it up should just go and stuff themselves in the fridge.

oh and erm we threw some fruits belonging to somebody away. eh how the hell were we supposed to know which was fresh?! everything inside looked decomposed and rotten. bah.

bought a shirt online. its sesame street! hahahaha. super cute!

sigh time to study!! gogogo!

now i feel like going back to bed.

sigh.

the weather now, the colour of the sky outside, depicts my mood.

totally

[[ . ]]* |3:38 PM|

its a rainy and sleepy lazy saturday. it has been raining the whole day can! spoilt my plans of wanting to go to chinatown to walk walk. alone. BAH.

trimmed my hair on thursday! hahaha. erm i think its abit too short for my liking but well. just hope that it grows out faster!!! my frindge is wayy too short. well. ya. aiyah. nvm. hahah.

collected my phone later in the afternoon. and the queue was like ARGH. 30 customers before me. wth. waited and waited until i wanted to puke. thank god weijie was there too. and OH, i think we watched like one and a half cycle of mr bean cartoon. cos they were showing on repeat. BAH.

had carls jnr yesterday for lunch with lydia and huijing. omg the protion was so huge that i couldnt finish eating!! faints. super value for guys. esp if they are big eaters. hahaha. came back and played around with make up since lyd was going to have a photo shoot later at night. hahah. it was very fun! esp right befoer the shoot where the whole short wing sprang into action. make up! clothes! hahaha. photo taking! =) LYDIA WE WILL SUPPORT U DE! hahaha we love ya!

havent been doing much even though i had set out to do so much more. sigh. this sucks. exams sucks. damn it. i just cant wait for it to be over. NOWNOWNOW.

sigh i just want an outlet for my frusturations and vent. shout, scream, box, whatever. i cant even think properly now! im just damn sick and tired of everything. damn it. BAHBAHBAH.

and the rain is not making it any better for me.
though i really love the rain. haha

sigh. programming practical test next wednesday. wish me luck.
then again, i think i would need more than luck to pass it.

[[ . ]]* |6:25 PM|

hmm my hell weekend wasnt as hell as i expected it to be. which was good. managed to complete one tutorial with the help of my daddy. hahaha. =) yeah!

PE is like excetlly one week away and im still not prepared for it. im piaing the lectures now. faints. i still have like 8 more hours to go! hahaha. i will complete them by thursday and i'll make sure i do. or at least try too. =) come on woman.

hmmm i wana trim my hair, but im pantang leh. i scared cut already then cut away my good luck for the exams. hahaha. cos they say cant cut hair before exams. HOW! but my backside itchy. BAH.

help. swimming in a pool of work.

drowning.

OH flushed away was quite a cute movie. =) or maybe it was the company. haha

[[ . ]]* |7:15 PM|

sigh i hate this period of time. it sucks like shit.

my future seems bleak.

or however you spell it. i cant be bothered to check the dictionary.

*rollseyes*

this weekend is going to be hell.

im tired before i even start.

[[ . ]]* |12:50 AM|