havent been doing much since last week.

ahma just got discharged after 9 days in NUH. she's home. but she's still so weak. she has no strength to even go upstairs! sigh. im so worried about here. but there's nothing much i can do except to tend to her needs. =( i know she's old and all. but i just dont want to accept the fact. i want her to be there when i get married and all. hmm ok thats abit too far. but ya i just want her to be healthy and well.

didnt even had time to go out with my friends i was supposed to meet. sigh. sorry.
trainings and i want to spend time home with my ahma.

but, i did meet jiaying though! she came back from UK for christmas holidays! my best friend since when we were 6 yrs old! haha thats about 15 years of friendship since PY! haha. and we meet only once a year! must suit her schedule also ma. haha. but ya nothing's changed since the last time we met. really glad to have her as a friend till now. =)
had our usual dose of craps and updating on each other's life. lunch was very budget! food court! walked ard bugis shopping, then rested at this cafe(?) place at level 2 in BV. first time there. we loveeeddd their fries! and a whole basket of it costing only $3.20?! ordered floats too. not a bad place to dine. haha. also, how could we forget to take photos! hahah.





she still looks the same, behaves the same, still as slim, still as tall! hahah. =) cant wait to meet her the nxt time! =)

christmas eve was spent with dear of cos. haha we watched 'night at the meusem' in the afternoon and had pasta for lunch! omg we were stuffed. haha. and the show was not that bad. quite interesting! and funny of cos.

after which, we met his teammates and left for their coach's house. they're damn funny la! and nice. i didnt feel left out. =) AND i have a new name, wendy. yucks! why? cos someone said i have a 'wendy' face. wth?! haha. also, i lost while playing blackjack! damn it. lousy cards! hahaha. lost a few bucks. then weijie played mahjiong. won afew bucks. so we even out. haha. oh! and we had pizza and kfc for dinner! thanks to coach. haahah.

the photos of him and his wife was very very nice! the photography skills and lighting. nice man! hahah. both of them looked damn good and natural. one said that he looked like jack neo. lol. what a joke! but then his hair looked like terrence cao! lol and his wife looked like evelyn tan!

yups thats what ive done for the past one wk plus. met up with jiaying and dear. other days were spend training and at home. i want to spend time with my grandma. help her, talk to her. like at least be there for her. i hope she gets well soon.

back to school tmr for trainings!

i miss dear.

[[ . ]]* |12:24 AM|

ahma's in hospital. why do old people not like to go to see the doctor when they're sick and have to wait till the last minute when they cannot take it, THEN see a doctor. by that time, it would have been too late. anyway ahma has been feeling better. but still weak. i hope she gets well soon. she's in NUH. which is good for me so i can see her often. =)

had sushi with dear on monday! hahaha the salmon was nice! i like spicy salmon. nxt time we'll be heading for the buffet. muahaha. more salmon and soft shell crabs and eels and sweet tofu and the steamed egg. hahaha never ending. lol. I WANA GO AGAIN!





tuesday was the shears hall bash! lydia won miss popular! and samuel won mr popular! both from block B. well. some block head made a stupid comment. what an arse. she's condemmed by ALL OF US. idiots. like what sab said, that person was like mrs goh talking about the 'golden peanuts'. BAH.




too many photos to upload. lol.

wed thru to monday was spent at home. surfing the net and playing games. shuffling between NUH and home. sigh. i miss my ahma. and i slept in the room alone for 3 nights! cos the monkeys are off to china until 20th. =( the house seems quiet without them. oh, and i slept without aircon! haha.

watched ERAGON on saturday with dear! =) muahaha. wanted to watch the holiday but there were no seats. well im glad i watched eragon anw. i like the visual effects! and the scenery was breath taking. =) whether its a bluesscreen or not, i loved what i saw. haha. and the 'ride' on the dragon, i felt like i was really on a rollercoaster ride! haha and there's going to be a part 2! =) i wana watch it. it was his sister's birthday and we headed for downtown east. bought her a necklace in a box. its real pretty but not sure if she liked it or not. nv really talked to her before. saddening. haha.

i guess im being brought up in a no-nonsense way. from primary school to junior college, i havent had any ahlian or ahbend friends. all are those guaiguai but mischevious friends. hahah. some of her friends smoked. and their outfits were hmm, typical teenager. however, i felt that she was like the best dressed there even though she was clad in just denim shorts and a normal tee. she looks nice! with her hair longer now. =)

training tomorrow. or rather, friendly with eusoff hall. but we dont have xiuyi and mae! no one to set! haha. wednesday will be a friendly with hall 6 if im not wrong. sigh. i wonder if i can still play for hall. wells. see how again.

i hope my ahma will recover and go home!

its been raining the past few days. cool and calming. i like it. i like the sound of the rain. haha ok i sound nuts. but ya. lol.

joined a spree and the organiser was horrible. very irresponsible. disgusting rat. i hope the mods will get an answer from her. SOON. if not i dont have to get my tops alr. the forum was bursting with comments. people bombarding. it was quite hilarious.

medicine is making me drowsy.

[[ . ]]* |1:15 AM|

time flies! its almost sunday already!

nothing much happened this week though. slacked monday through till thursday. hahaha.

had training on friday! at SPANS! the last time i was there was like 2 years ago!? i love that place. or maybe just their toilet. we used to train there so often. even before a match. i miss it. haha. anw we trained with the SAJC people. me jiawen and xinhui. it was fun! but tiring! cos i havent really been exercising. haha. fatty me. we laughed so much our mouth and stomach ached. they were very friendly. =)

went for rebecca's birthday party at night at taboo. GAY pub. guys were touching and kissing each other. *faints* first time exposed to gays. haha. met beisi and some of the ny seniors! haha. miss tee we shoud go out when we can make it ok! bet both of us will be busy with trainings. hmm. took many photos! quite fun i must say. everyone looked pretty! =) photos will be up soon.

slack.

tomorrow would have a cchs vball gathering at marina square. the last time we gathered was 2 years ago! hahaha. we'll see how each of us have changed.

lor mee tomorrow too! =) i love ahma's lormee. its the best.

OHHH. the clothes i ordered from American Eagles have finally arrived! im so excited and happy! why? cos the clothes fit nicely! even the skirt! *prances around* yeah! cos its always a risk buying clothes online. oh and the stuff was really cheap! im so excited im going to do a breakdown for the stuff i bought.

AE signature top usual price USD 15.90, bought at USD 6.95
AE skirt usual price USD 34.50, bought at USD 14.95
AE guys top usual price USD 19.50, bought at USD 6.95

total in USD original price, USD 69.90
total in USD bought price, USD 28.85

on top of that, there was a 20% discount!! =))

plus shipping to singapore and registered postage to my house, its only about SGD 50 total!!
muahaha. im happy. =) misslim is a person who doesnt spend alot on clothes. SO, i only look at
clearance items. muahaha. they're not that bad! they're pretty too.

finally, i just want to say that,

I AM JEALOUS! COS I DONT HAVE A LOVE LETTER LIKE DEAR HAD. =(

i want a love letter too! dear see this? write one nice nice one for me. no chinese please! i'll become crossed-eye reading it. haha. can u believe that someoeone can actually write a 2 paged letter in chinese. and ONLY chinese! i think i would need to check how to write a word 10 times in every sentence. hahaha. my chinese is deproving exponentially. still, im really amazed at how the girl could write a letter in chinese. the last time i wrote chinese 2 pages long was for the AO level chinese! 3 yrs ago?!

ok time to continue being jealous and cry myself to sleep.

haha. i will be going to upload ALOT of photos in the next post.

[[ . ]]* |11:32 PM|

ive always wondered. what's the purpose of a blog.

to me, its supposed to be a place to write my thoughts. happiness, sadness, joy, frustrations, irritatedness(if there's such a word), blah blah. just ya, a place for one to write about their life and what they feel. and for others to know you. in a way.

but its ironic at how i have to filter my thoughts even though the temptations to pen down everything is great. the thought of hurting someone, the thought of causing unhappiness, stops me.

of cos we would blog about our happiness. i know i always do. haha. but then again. sigh. when something sad happens. it will just be kept within me.

personal insults. HAHA. hmmm. ya nothing to say.

im blabbering again. but sometimes dont u wonder what the purpose of YOUR blog is for?

AIYAH

someone thinks that he/she is always the one getting hurt by others. that no one appreciates what he/she does for others. yup. great! i dont know what to say to that person.

giving that person away. yup. my fault. thanks alot. im always seen as the one getting the person into trouble. so everything i do is to 'degrade' the person even further. thanks.

always, the person thinks that everyone else is picking on the person. ya thats what the person thinks. doesnt the person consider about other's life. so the person feels that the person is being treated unfairly?!

THEN WHAT ABOUT ME

so i am being treated fairly? i study hard, i did my best during the examinations. but whether it gets reflected in my grade is another thing. if i FAIL again, im OUT. ya so i admit that i didnt study properly in the past. SO WHAT. my dad keeps telling me that is ok if i cant make it again, i can study else where. hahaha. ok fine. maybe he does mean good. but i know if i dont make it again, im going to throw his face. why? cos he's smart but his daughter is otherwise. great! im smiling like an idiot now. his colleagues are concerned. i do appreciate their concern. i mean, ive seen them since i was like in primary school? can say that i 'know' the admin office aunties and some of the uncles since young. sigh. disappointment. there's nothing much i can do now.

then comes the boyfriend part. im sorry weijie. sorry to drag you into this. sorry. but my family is not as open as i wish it could be. its always about you. ahma and daddy telling me CONSTANTLY, dont go with that BOY. dont meet him. why are u still with him.
wtf. what BOY. he has a name ok. so what if he's in poly. younger than me. i know im SUPPOSED to get a boyfriend who studies in the same standard as me. but have you considered that maybe your daughter is not going to make it too? what is so bad about poly. he treats me well. im happy. you said you want your daughter to be happy. ok i am. but i cant have him as a boyfriend. why? cos he's not studying in a university.
have you thought about what lies beneath the happy face. everything i do is wrong. maybe i am.

im supposed to stand up for myself if im right. thats what you have taught us. but when i want to say something for myself. that i do not think that i was in the wrong. it is being looked upon as talking back. GREAT. i love to talk back. i love being rude. sometimes i get scolded for nothing. for something that i didnt do. but i just keep quiet and tolerate. fine maybe to you guys i AM in the wrong, for whatever i didnt do.

to my sisters im just a hot tempered bitch who shouts at them whenever i get the chance to. ya! i love being such a nice sister. what goes through their thick sculls. when people call them, they dont answer when OBVIOUSLY i know they can hear. i shout at them asking why didnt they answer. when i say something, i expect a response. they dont give me one, i'd scold. its basic manners to respond to the person who is taking to you. so DO IT! i hate it especially when they dont respond to ahma. they'll get hell from me.

exams have just ended and i am already fretting about my future. stressed that i cant do the paper before exams, stressed that i cant pass after the exams. i dont think i will get a day of peace until i get my final results. just hit me with it. i think my heart is able to withstand the blow. its numb. even looking through the SIM website. haha.

my future is bleak.

and to the people who keeps asking me stupid questions.
THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH FAILING A MODULE. IM JUST NOT AS SMART AS YOU OK. CAN?! i hate it. F. who wants to get a F grade. especially when you're in university. I HAVE GOT 3! i freaking failed failed failed. i dont think it is something to be very ashamed about. fail then fail la! retake if its a pre-requsite la! dont give me the stares and that look on your face like, 'huh come uni and fail ah'. maybe i am over reacting. cos im quite agitated now. some of them mean well. fine ok. but dont hide it cos i can tell.

people keep comparing about their CAP. and what do i do? just keep quiet. or maybe one day i should just shout it out, HEY I FAILED LEH! EXCITING NOT. i bet those people will just faint. haha. evil. sigh. i know that students come in to get the best grades that they can. i can understand that they feel disappointed when they dont reach their target. thats why i keep quiet. i should just stop dwelling on my failure and concentrate on getting on with my future.

i just dont like whatever is going on in my life now.

i will try to be happy.

try.

[[ . ]]* |5:30 PM|

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!!

muahahaha its over. weeks of hell, OVER. then again since its over, suddenly i dont feel anything. just that i can slack and do whatever i want. hahaha. and im going out later for a movie and dinner with my secondary school friends!!! sighh i cant meet my dear. =(

anw exams sucked. i told my daddy after every paper that i can go and long pia (bang wall). haha. its not very good. but i did try my very best in every paper. i just hope that i can pass this semester and stay on. wish me luck! since there's nothing much i can do since its over. haha.

ok im blabbering.

ohh. i watched STEP UP 2 weeks ago! it was fantastic! i loved it! haha. the guy was handsome and the girl pretty! AND both danced damn damn well! the final dance left me in awe. haha. loves. might even get the vcd. super duper fantastic! =) *grins* Channing Tatum is cool la. hahah.


i love this picture above! =)




going home tonight! =) i miss my home! and my ahma too.

i hope to be able to go out with dear soon. i miss you! =)

ok im going to slack and slack and nua in my room and at home. haha.

[[ . ]]* |1:06 PM|