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Wednesday, May 18, 2005



i feel so xin suan, but more of numb. why did it have to end up this way? i thought that everything was going well, we were obviously interested in each other. the next moment, its gone. ended. and u 'left' without telling me why. after a birthday card, the msges and usual late night phone calls ended. u told me that u were busy and had to get ready stuff for your overseas trip. but u NV told me when were u free!! to think that i have been secertly keeping my wkends for YOU. HA!

every since that day when u said that u were at my void deck, and left before i came home, i have been hoping that you might appear there once more. 3 wks have passed and still nothing. silly me.

G told me to get over it, its to virtual to be true. (i havent met him b4) fine. it is very imaginary. but judging on the phone calls with him, i feel so good! i feel like im being liked and concerned by him. we clicked so well. u always made me laugh. i like the way u laugh and the way u sweet talk. what u have showered me was what K could not give me. we talked about the future, crapped abt life and all. endless topics to talk about. then one day u told me that i would def have a boyfriend within one month's time. and that you very sure about it. haha. stupid me actually believed u. after one month, well, im still single. then again, i had the chance to get into another relationship but i gave tt up for u. i felt that u were more important.

was i such a fool to believe what you tell me?
one thing that i have learnt:
promises are made to be broken

ure the first guy i feel strongly towards and this is how u put me flat down. thanx man. i feel great! i think i should just remain single all the way. dont want to feel like this anymore. i dont want my heart to be brokened again. people might be thinking : is this girl nuts? she hasnt even met the guy!
well, i have no idea what to say. haha.

said that i want to forget him. yes i will try to. but it does take some time. so give me some time pls. =)
G said that i deserve better. yup i feel so too. another friend told me, he cant be that busy till no time to even send me one msg?! hmm that got me thinking. haha

i think i will leave it till uni days to get a bf. and the guy has to be the one doing work. wahaha =)


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