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Thursday, May 19, 2005
hmm early morning and im bored. supposed to be doing some registry thingy.but tt can wait. haha
same thoughts again. hmm know what? actually i AM willing to give him up. but i just want to know the reason why he just left me like that. im not asking him to be with me or what lor. he told me once, that i'll have a boyfriend within one month. and that was like 11 april tt week. pls look at tt bloody date now. i feel like telling him, yeah i will get a boyfriend, appparently it isnt you right? haha.
very bu gan xin lor. and i havent met him b4. great. spoilt my chances on tuesday.haha. i told him online: are u avoiding me? can u just tell me. (he didnt reply for like one hr. fine. ) 2nd msg: u know what? i feel like a fool. thanx for making me feel like one.
damn it. then again i think i was too rush. like since i have been waiting for 3 wks alr, might as well wait. something good might come out of it. haha in my dreams right? lol yaya.
he is a very nice guy actually. not the ah beng that i thought he was. haha. down-to-earth, sensible, fun loving, everything! he didnt appear to be the person i thought he would be. charming and knows what to say. gives me enough attention, not excessive. yup. makes the effort to call me almost every night during that one month. haha. i must have been dreaming. cos he has totally stopped all that and no contact with me alr. to think that i actually fell for him and tot of him as my boyfriend alr.
we called each other dear and darling. it sounded so right. haha and there was one msg he sent on the 26th april, morning dear, i love ya. hee
sweet right. haha. tt was the only time. hai. maybe i read too much into it.
whenever i see the drawing on the blog, i somehow wished tt it was me and him together, watching the stars from below. his arms around me. so sweet. hhahaha. *dreams* =)[[ . ]]* |10:46 AM|