hmm today was no surprise again. haha he didnt ask me out. so i went parkway with my mum and sisters. saw fiona xie and julian hee! wahh he looks damn good! *drools hmmm didnt reli do anything there la. just walked ard and had ice cream. i think this was one of the first, or was it the first time that the 4 of us sat down and talk, crap and eat? haha. ya its a nice feeling. cos i always envied those family that were v close. yups. love my family. wanted to get a windbreaker. a branded one. ok yes, im brand consious. but its cos i'll be wearing it quite often ma. den i donwan a weird weird looking one. get wad i mean. haha. too bad parkway dont have. hmph

msged him at 430 saying
me:hey hmm so i doubt we'll be meeting today alr rite. enjoy ur wkend then. =)
him:not dos wk.. i v tired, need to recharge. i no batt, not low batt. haha..
me: haha okok. but u shd at least tell me that u cannot make it wad. rest well then.

wah kao. he made me sound as if im the one asking him out. wtf. i feel so stupid and dumb. but rlei lor. i know ure tired, but not to the extent where u cant msg me to tell me that ure not free or sth? arghs. u know wad. i think hes just not interested alr. and moreover, he's gg to thailand for trng on the 1st june for 3 wks. wtf. arghs. its irritating. haha. i cant help it. friends have told me that he's a bastard and not worth it. but i have no idea why do i like him so much! if ppl were reading this, they wil feel like boxing me rite. haha. well.. i reli have no idea. mayb cos of what we talked about before? he gave me hopes. =) time to wake up darling. haha

i will feel sad and all whenever i see him online. its like i expect him to msg me. ok, not expect. mayb hope he'll msg me. but no. i always have to be the first to msg. and just now i msged hey =) , he didnt reply. haha ok fine, mayb there was nothing to reply to la. but i mean i will be happy if u even bothered to reply! is that too much? i dont think so. he's just wasting my time la. im sure i can find much better guys in uni. and engine?! def wil have more guys rite? hahaha. hopefully. im not desperate. just feel that i deserve better. bleah

went to the airport to see this relative who's here for holiday. haha relatives frm china asked her to pass ALOT of things back for us. my yi-po(grandma's sis) , her husband and laoxiong went too. haha actually i went today was cos xiong was gg =) wanted to see him. haha he's rlei a VERY nice guy. i think he's like the best guy i have ever seen. sensible, reliable, responsible, put others before himself, caring, humorous, listens, wad have u.haha BUT he has a gf =( but i think she's very lucky. xiong especially drove his grandparents all the way to the airport and back. pls tell me which guy will actually do that!? i doubt any will. haha. seriously speaking. i was mesmerised. i have a secret crush on him since forever. hahaha. but he's reli a very nice guy. if only every guy was like him. and he's not bad looking. 7/10. ok, pleasent looking la. not that fantastic. but his character is superb lor! makes up for everything. hmm he's tall. 178? but abit too skinny for me. haha. i dono la. everyone always say: lao xiong jin guai. (he's very guai) haha. true 100% *claps*

someone pls wake me up. im still living in my dream

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

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