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Tuesday, May 24, 2005



hmmm he msged me this morning. : morning.. going for field camp le. take care ya
haha hmm and guess wad i stupidly replied?! : morning DEAR.take care and becareful ya.
someone just knock me out NOW.haha.how dumb can i get man?! its like so duh. why did i even reply? reply him nvm ah, still go and put a 'dear' inside.omgomgomg. wanted to msg him saying i was too tired and didnt realise i had added that in, but fren said donwant. let it sound natrual. i think im too used to using dear on him that i actually msged him that. haha. yup. plain dumb. i dono wad to say abt myself.

this morn, J asked me how was my wkend. it made me suspicious. really. cos its like she knew something that i dont. and u cant blame me for being suspicious cos she did have some contact with him in the past. like him asking her to ask for my address. haha. yup. i feel weird. but i didnt tell J that he asked me out. i donwan things to mess up. just cant help but feel... hmmm... dono how to say. cos wad im thinking abt can run both ways. haha.

had lunch with one of my good buddies. haha short but well. fun la. bought another top frm bodynits.i think its too short, but i liked the colour. its something different.haha.and B said it looked alright. hmmm. she is truthful la. so it cant be that bad rite? hahaha.

just cant get him out of my mind. i know its rlei boring and irritating to be reading abt the same person over and over again. but well. haiya. i dono la. rlei confused and vexed. i cant tell wad are his intentions from his actions. its like he means something else when i thought he meant this. haha. what the hell. but he's the very first guy that i even bother about. and still msg him eventhough i don think he is interested anymore. how thick skinned can i get. haha. he had better not cancel out on me on sat. i'll murder him. haha. then again, im scared of meeting him. like wad am i gg to say or how am i gg to react?! wad if he thinks im dumb, fat, ugly, boring, irritating, blahblah. haha shit. im thinking to much alr. at most, i'll let him do the talking. if not, we'll both shut up. muahahah.


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