GUYS. CANT ESCAPE THIS TOPIC AT THIS STUPID AGE. cos seems like everything that we talk abt are like guys and fashion. haha.

guys at the camp cannot make it at all! only the seniors were shuai. haha. some.
tw frm my grp was not bad looking, complextion excellent tall. but his character abit funny. cant click with him. too bad. so wad if he was the beach pageant contestant too. haha.

then there's lw, my dance partner when we were at sentosa frm another grp. he's nice and shyshy looking, and had small eyes!! dono why but i have sth for small eyed guys. haha. he's the one who asked if i how i was gg home. haha. =) and he msged me a few times! gg to have lunch w him tmr. IF he makes it and not put me aeroplane like sl. haha. mayb cos i big mouth la. he was talking abt xiao long bao, i said no $ la, u wan to treat ah? he said ok lor! lunch! i was surprised. haha. ok, accepted the invitation. =) oh there's this gal chris frm chin's grp who thinks tt he's vv shuai! -_- faints. haha den she was sad when she saw this tall tall gal asking for his number. chin asked was it me? but she knows tt i will not ask for guys's number. too bad darling. oh ya, he failed 1. height.

ter cannot make it. he seemed to be gg against me all the time and i cannot stand it. bleah to him. and to trust my to say he might be interested in me. lene think's its childish. i think so too. i'll be bhb and thinks he's interested, but if u really are, thats not the way to show it. talked to him online tt day abt bgr and my expectations in a guy. haha he failed the first one already. height. 174 is a nono. told him tt i'd be taller den him if i wore heels. he didnt believe and had to compare on the night of the bash. even rl said to him, don think ur hair is spiked up means ure taller. haha i LOL man. oh ya, his complextion also CMI. its dman bad. and his dance, IF you even call it dance, turns not only me, but the gals off. totally off. haha

kenny msged me last night. damn long.

its been 3 mths aft fate put a stop to our relationship. drowning myself seemed e way to forgetting abt the relationship, u. just seeing u last ek proved my theory to be wrong. its just myself. i dont reli bother wad u think abt this. life stil carries on. hoping tt u agree on mtg up just give myself reason to hope. total loser? nah. probably very sad if u find ur beau.cry even?wad lies ahead doesnt reli matter.cos i know i love u.cant stop me right?
wads all that for?to make u feel bad?a way to get u back? nah. its just things that has been on my mind recently that i wish to make known to u. its easy to press delete to erase msg but its not easy to command my finger in doing so. got it? haha.its never easy understanding. try to open urself to whichever him finds u.i congratulate u on making tt one step towards a promising future in nus. fate to bring us tgt some day? damn. dont bother. nite.

i think its stupid lor. how lame can he get?! lene read it and she said its a whole lot of bull. he put so many question marks for wad? get u back? make u feel bad? no i DO NOT. u only turn me off my saying all those. don make urself look so fragile. yes i did dump u. but i dont think i was in the wrong oso. well i was glad i broke off with u also. if not i wun get to know other guys also. i will feel guilty. and u were boring. nothing fun. dont u realise we had NOTHING to talk abt when we were tgt?! dont tell me u didnt realise it. i was quiet and so were u.just nothing. we didnt have common topics wadsoever. u cant crap, cant make me happy, cant entertain me, cant sweet-talk like sl does. u cant make my heart skip a beat like lw. its just boring la. and the fact tt we see each other only once a wk doesnt help much. mayb i was too young and immature to know wad i want. but now i do. and its definately not you. bleah. haha omg i sound mean. nvm. only 3 ppl knows. shhh.

havent thought about sl for quite a while. occasionally he pops into my mind. i wonder if he willl msg or call me to inform me tt he's back in spore. i want to meet him. i still think he's the best among all the others. why did he have to make me feel this way? its such a pity. still pinning some hope on u. but u will nv know about it right. come back soon! hhaha i sound desperate. but im not.

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