was online last night.so was he. i didnt bother to msg him la. he msged me instead! wad a surprise man! haha. happy of cos. but confused. i think i sounded too eager. as usual.
our conversation was as follows:

::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
hey u free tmr
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
i grad le.. hee, so happi todae
* rainbow says:
haha. grad?
* rainbow says:
tmr u can come out ah?
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
yup, got my cert
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
yup i tink so
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
i wanna go ktv.. u wana come along
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
if u dun mind
* rainbow says:
haha u gg w ur frens rite? lol. donwan la..
* rainbow says:
u go enjoy.. =)
* rainbow says:
very paisae oso .. haha
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
nvm la
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
i meet u first, den bring u along
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
u tink bout ir
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
it
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
sms mi ltr k
* rainbow says:
haha..
* rainbow says:
wad time u gg?
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
nt sure yet leh
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
at evening
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
i tink
* rainbow says:
ohhh.. hmm haha.
* rainbow says:
i meet u first ba.. but i end at 6..
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
oki.. thn i sms tmr ba
* rainbow says:
haha. okok. msg me again.. =)
* rainbow says:
where u all gg ktv? i nv go b4.. haha
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
i oso nt sure
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
dey haben cfm
::: - cried a river, try to bulid myself a bridge n get over it..::: says:
will sms tmr
* rainbow says:
oh ok..

haha yup thats about it. but another part of me thinks that he's gg to put me aeroplane again. haha. so i don rlei wan to think so much abt it. even if he does. its expected. lol. i know im always contradicting my statements. pls bear w me. =) im excited in a way. but when with him, i'll try to act normal, or BE normal. he sounds happy when he first asked me out. at the top. mayb he really was busy with alot of stuff and i misunderstood him? always thinking that he bo chap me and all. hmmm. i dont like to comment and then realise that my judgement is wrong. like with hari oso. im afraid that wad i tell bren is not reli wad hari thinks. erm confusing? ya. i feel tt too.

mtg cousion ltr for lunch. haha mayb i'll tell her about this. i bet she'll laugh and say im dumb. haha must rmb to bring my zen!!

want to go for the nus camp! joanne msged me and asked me to go with her to this cultural camp! haha i wanted but couldnt find anyone who wanted to go. so since she asked, I'LL GO! wahahah and we havent been to our taitai sessions for like 2 months! hahaha. im fat alr man. we'll go out SOON. haha. miss the other miss lim! =)

oh ya, my dad is back. and he threathened me. that if i go ntu, he wun let me stay in the hall. so much for respecting my decision. he accused me that i said he was forcing me to go to nus. i NEVER said that before ok! mayb i implied it. but im sure i nv used the word FORCE. dman it. i understand wad he's thinking. like he arranged the interview, and called up the PROFs to help me blah blah. i am greatful to what he has done. but i cant change the decision if they donwant me rite. what they are thinking now is that, IF i get into nus, i HAVE TO go to nus. dman it. den what about MY choice?! thanx alot man. ok ok i know that ure scared of no face. i know. cos if it was me, i will oso no face one. but seriuosly, i dont reli want to go nus. can someone help me on this? i don think anyone can. they all say, oh its reli up to u, its ur decision. fuck! i know man. im asking for opinion. not asking u the questions and get it thrown back at me. ok, i HOPE nus DOESNT WANT ME! and i think they definately dont want me, after that stupid interview.

wow. this is a long post man. haha. nvm. those are just my thoughts. haha

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