hmm its wednesday already. i can move into the hall starting tomorrow. time really flies. and i feel that i am unable to catch up. i havent packed my things and i am meeting him later.

i think i am pmsing right now. nothing seems right. i keep looking at the negative side of things. even he could tell that there's something missing in me. worrying and thinking about unnecessary issues. i did not tell him wad was it about because i have no idea what i was thinking about too. i just said that everything in my head seemed to be on the fast forward mode and the images are just flashing past. think this got him worried. haha. but well. sometimes i pity guys. they have to tolerate the nonsense that their girlfriends are throwing at them. but that doesnt mean that guys do not have mood swings too ok! haha. for one thing, i know that he has. sometimes. but he's learning to control that.

oh ya. there was one night he messaged me some stuff. something about trust. he said that as long as there is trust, nothing will or can come between us. and he asked me if i could promise him about this trust and not to misuse the trust between us. i said yes. i am very gald that he is thinking this way. really. i was pleasently surprised. =) told charlene about it. she said that it was the most sensible thing that he has said so far. also, she was happy for us. haha. she said that i have grown up. i hope that i have. =) i dont want this trust to disappear because of something stupid that either of us did. it would not be fair to the other person.

no thanks to kailin that she said i will be tempted in university. and to look at the number of guys that have expressed interest in me. i am not saying that im pretty or whatsoever. what she was trying to say was that in university, there would be even more guys around. and if they are all blind like those who are interested in me, then too bad. hahaha. great! right after i told her about what wj told me. lol. but i dont blame her. i mean she has known me for like what, 7 years already? i am sure she knows me better than that. haha. but yup. im afraid of it too. i will be staying in hall, having classes with classes that has only 5gals out of 20? hmm mayb the ration is not that bad. but u get what i mean. they will always be somewhere near me and i will see them almost everyday. those in hall are even worse. haha. even at night!! hmmm. i am not so desperate to have rushed into the relationship with wj. it was just something that i wanted to be. haha. hmm. ya.

i am NOT talking sense in this entry. why am i even blogging?! arghs.

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