i feel that im worrying too much about us. hmm i dono how to say this but yup. its just a feeling that i have. mayb we dont know each other well enough. but we've been tgt for like one wk plus. and the time spent tgt with him was much more than what i have spent with kenny in the 2 months. hahaha. yes.

he msged me: hmm baby, im stil not sure which or how is a better choice to treat you. shd i keep asking you out or let you go out with your frens. if u wana go out with me must let me know ok? don always let me make the decision for u hao ma? cos all i wan is for u to be happy darling.

hmm im not sure how or why, but im alr very happy that he bothered to tell me about such stuff. cos mayb i DO keep asking him to make the decision for me. im afraid that he's unhappy and i dont want him to be. really. im afraid that he will be angry or unhappy that i am not spending time with him. cos i seem to be spending time with my friends. haha. not sure why but i dont have this prob when i was with ken. mayb i took him for granted and couldnt be bothered much about how he feels? yup. i guess so. haha. ok thats not the point. the point now is that wj is bothering to tell me how he feels.

i will be meeting him later for dinner. hmm i have to admit that we do not really have any common topics to talk about. but i do feel very confortable when i am with him. so much so that i dont find the need to have any common topics for now. i told lene. she said there will bound to be problems coming up soon. i dont deny. cos i have to be realistic. nothing will so smoothly as planned. just have to be prepared. i guess he's trying to change for the better too. like try not to tie me down? i dont want him to and im sure he knows that too. he's understanding enough to ask me to try out new stuff like staying in halls. =) COMPROMISE. thats what we're doing. i told him that. and he said that he thinks that he will be doing the compromising more den i would be. i want BOTH of us to be compromising and not only one sided.

dear, i really am falling for u as the days pass. and i dont want any of these to end. but we do have to keep am open mind.

i have no idea why i just typed that. he doesnt even know that i have a blog! wad the hell. hai. but yup. i am falling fast. help.





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