hmm havent been blogging for quite a while. have been busy. school has already started for 2 weeks plus. and i dont think i have learnt anything. will feel sleepy whenever i am in the lecture theater. i have no idea why. i just cant take 2 hour lectures! arghs. but thank god i am able to keep awake during tutorials. haha. tutorials started today. and my first tutorial was physics. guess what, i am the only girl in the whole class.haha. should i be surprised? i think the ratio sucks. but well, its engine. cant be helped i guess. there SHOULD be at least 2-3 more girls!! haha. the guys are not very good looking and they are short. haha. sorry. but its a fact. ok,not implying that im good looking whatsoever. at least let me have an eye candy and something to look forward to right? hahaha. =)

IBG (inter-block games) have already started. i dont feel like going for any of them. damn sian la. and i think its a waste of time. yup. and not that im not a very sporty person. but im just plain lazy can. haha. what ever!

saw joanne lim just now! wahahah. so happy to have met her! havent seen her in a damn long time! and ya, being the usual us, we were noisy and loud la. haha she's coming to my hall tmr! yeah! miss talking and bitching with her. hahaha. hai.

yup. been meeting him quite often for now. cos have matches at tampines and hougang. then i will go to his house and stay over. this is the only period of time in which i can spend so much time with him. doubt i will have so much time once the school work starts pouring in. haha. after knowing him for almost 2 months, he's really someone i like. typically nice person. haha. he takes real good care of me. very cautious. but i dont know if it will be like tt aft a few more months. i hope it will remain the same. though he might not be the 'ideal' bf i thought i would have, but his caring and thoughtfulness makes up for it. i have dreamed of a bf who is rich and has a car so he can drive me around. haha and has the extra money to buy presents for me. materialistic i know. but girls likes to be pampered! who doesnt. haha. for his case, its the total opposite. his family is not very well to do and he doesnt has tt extra cash to spend on me. we usually go dutch. not that i mind la. have to understand his situation. now his mum is in hospital cos of some stomach problem. i hope she's fine. then i think about the hospital fees, i wonder how are they going to pay. hmm. ya. really. i just want everything to be fine. but will that come true? hmm. just have to pray for now.

charlene came over last night. we talked about alot of stuff. missed talking to her. all the sillyness and craziness. just feel very comfortable with her. u can tell her anything and everything. thanx bestfren! 10 years of trust. i appreciate it alot. =)

not forgetting miss ong. havent seen her in a long time too. hai. i think hall is really taking up alot of my time. damn it. i miss my grandma. eventhough i went home yesterday. i hardly had time to talk to her. hai. i feel very xin suan. i didnt ask if she's feeling well, i didnt ask how is her leg, i didnt ask her has she been taking her medicine, i didnt ask if everything is fine. oh ya, she told me this morning tt her leg feels very suan and painful. i feel so useless! i cant do anything to make it feel better. one month out of house sucks. i know people will not live forever. but i hope she lives longer. im afraid for her. her kidneys are failing, heart muscles are weak. fuck man. i can only talk. no action. pls tell me what the fuck can i do. i feel frusturated with myself. damn it.

later still have stupid IBG. fuck. i dont want to go. but bloody hell. must go. really lor. i want to study and do my tutorials. but i doubt i will. damn damn damn. fuck fuck fuck. suddenly my life seems so messed and fucked up. help me pls. but i dont think anyone can.

ok i am talking rubbish. this is a useless post.

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