hmmm the past 2 days were. erm. boring? i cant find a suitable word to discribe.haha.

went sentosa yesterday morning till about 3 plus. it was notbad la. but the opponents were not very good and there wasnt much rally. haha it wasnt as fun as i hoped it would be cos i think i have been quite out of touch with the ppl alr. then like abit awkward u know? haha. well. whatever la.bleah.

aft tt went back to hall to bath, change, get ready to go out lor. met him at harbour front. hmm i dono what's going on between us ba. its like so diaoz... fun when we're tgt. that i dont deny. but u know, i really dont know wads he thinking sometimes!! and it can get quite furstrating. well, what to do right. hmm we had dinner at harbourfront food court. then headed on to esplanade. wanted to wactch fireworks. ya, right. we saw only the lighting and not the bloody fireworks itself lor. what the fuck. i was abit disappointed. but i was at fault la. cos i didnt feel like walking towards the other side. bleah. aft tt we went to brasbasar macs. had ice cream and fries! haha. went back aft tt. hmmm ya. nothing much la. everything seems boring. but i dont deny that i had fun when i was with him.

today was worse. went for one hour lect then came back to hall. slept a while, had dinner, then was the IBG captain elections, now in room slacking and thinking what is he thinking of. damn it.

ya the IBG last for like 2 bloody weeks! including weekends! damn it. i feel so screwed up. i know my family will nag and scold de. but what to do?! i cant help it! u think i want to stay here and play some stupid games? suddenly i feel like hiding in my shell... and nv get out.

tmr have lect at 8. fuck. i dont wan to wake up so early. then i think i screwed up my timetable. cos actually i only have lect till 10. but i bidded for this other module tt has lectures from 12-2!!! damn it. so ya. i have a 2 hour break inbetween. arghs. how great can tt be.

tmr is also block initiation day. i am not going. i told them that i have training. i really thought that there was training. but well in the end they dont have. so well, might as well make use of tt time. i say tt im going out. haha. meeting him ba. somehow my life seems to be revolving around him, school and hall. my life sucks.

feel like im gg into depression. ='(

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