im feeling so confused and lost. he msged me just now. i miss him. he said that he missed me, don ask him why cos he doesnt know too.

think everything started cos of my nick. haha. its * i miss u. really. but i do miss him! =) he msged me sunday afternoon asking who i missed. after a few msges, i said YOU. haha. i dono how he felt or wad. i just wanted to get it out of my chest. then he called me that night. we talked for 1 and a half hours. cos he had to go off to do sth. no idea what. but ya. im just very glad that he even called. i miss talking to him. =) we were crapping and talking about everything under the sun. i miss those times we used to crap on the phone for hours. but that was 6 months ago. everything just feels so good and nice. feels very comfortable with him. haha. then lydia talked to hiim briefly. lol.asked him to BUCK UP?! lol she's damn funny la. haha i think he was shocked. i played dumb. asked wad she meant by that. he said' it means tt even though u have a bf, i can still go after u' hmm well. ya thats true. also, he asked if i told her about him. obviously right. i havent been happy and laughing in a very long time. over the phone that is. haha

just now, he msged. as shown above. then we msged quite a lot. talking about stuff. that he still likes me and that he wants to get me back? i was like are u sure u still like me? it has been 6 months. he said yes. he also asked me to say sorry to wj cos he's going to try to chase me. haha. i felt happy and confused at the same time. afraid tt if i break with wj and go with him, he will be like'oh i got her alr, now what?' no kick man! haha. fuck. i donwant that to happen. it does not reflect very good about me too. i told him that. he said love is unfair. why must it be like that. i will feel bad too. wj will be the worst. think saying that he'll be sad is an understatement. haha. fine. whatever. i cant judge much cos i havent met sl at all! i want to see how would it be like face to face. will we have so many things to talk about? still as chatty? wad if he gets turns off by me? i will be dman sad. haha. oh ya, i told him too, that i do like him too. i admit.

fuck. my life is in a mess. i m lagging in tutorials and lectures and mid term test is like only nxt wk, CTW sucks cos i cant seem to find any secondary sources and its due on friday, my relationship matters suck like shit, trainings for IHG. i think its going to be damn hiong and i don rlei wan tt. shit. help me pls. if i take up 4 sports, with 3 trngs each wk for each sport. where to have time for myself?! fuck. i think im too vulgar these few days. i dono why. and i don think i want to know.

cy ah cy, better buck up alr. stop thinking about r/s matters. how impt are them to u?! hmm quite impt? but of cos studies comes first! haha. ya .

save me from my abiss.

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