its like 242AM and im still awake. morning lesson of 10 tmr. thank god.

i feel that im giving myself too much stress when im staying in hall. i seem to be repeating myself over and over again. and according to wj, 50% or even more of what i say is repeated. hahah. thanx ah. but yup. sometimes i feel that im not included in stuff. conversations and stuff. like just now when d,m,s were in s's room. i mean my door was open and i could hear laughter. why didnt they ask me in? and i think that they're going shopping on saturday agt ibg bowling. but they didnt tell me. i gathered m let the cat out of the bag.cos when i asked her where u all gg,she said town. i was like huh? den i asked who's going. she said s n w but its impromptu. hmmm ya rite. im not dumb u konw. ahha or am i too sensitive. i guess so ba. i seem paraniod. haha i dont use to be like this. where is the girl who didnt care about her surroundings and just be herself? i seem to be holding back myself nowadays. help. its not good. i dont wan to be like tt.

but im thankful to know lydia. the new person staying in rroom 601. she's a reli nice person. can be loud and crazy as me, and then serious and helpful to this stupid person here who doesnt seem to understand anything. haha. we're more or less on the same frequency =) im happy to know her. cos i know tt sometimes, m and s, hmm we're on slightly different wavelengths. fuck it man. i think i should be less involved in hall activities and more into my friends and work.

this week is buaya week. and im NOT interested in buaya-ing anyone. whatever. do i look as if i care? i have to just play along lor.

fucked up life

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