this was what he msged me last night. 11 msges in total.

darling, i really dono what to say or what to do. i have no idea how to handle this situation dear. all i know is that i dont wana lost u just like that and i wana treat u better. help u with ur problems. but until now, it seems only that i have been adding on to ur problems. hai. since the situation is already like this. i dont reli expect much le. not that i want to but yes darling. sometimes verbally, words from you can make me feel alot better. well, not that you sometimes will oso dont feel like meering me, cant talk to me as oftenly. but that a love you or a miss you from you counts. every single word and care from you counts. just wana let u know all these k. hai. cos sometimes u dont even tell me that you miss me. i know its a bit bo liao but at least u know that i miss u alot. and u are always on my mind. maybe it seems childish i guess. but i cant ask for more right dear. hai. i have very low confidence in myself when it comes to relatioship. but i always try not to say stuff like if u wana go just go. cos i feel tt i will only bring sufferings to u. more sufferings than happiness. no me no sufferings. but darling. i am trying my best not to think this way and say such stuff already. hai. hope u can see that i really wish that i can have u by my side for as long as it is possible. cos i dont even know how u feel about this relationship. hmm maybe all these are craps. but darling. im so sorry to flood ur inbox and i dont wana add on to ur load. and dear u must tell me what u think if not i will nv know what it is. i know i say these alo fo times le but still u shall decide when we meet ba. anything just find me. take good care of urself. slp tite. and enjoy urself with ur life ba. i love you. i miss you dear. hmm sometimes u reli make me feel that saying all these are like nothing to you. but thats what i think la. hai. anw slp tite. sugar dreams. enjoy ur day...

wad the hell. he sent at 3 plus last night. i dono la. feeling like shit. i don feel like cont this r/s cos i need alot of time. i dono how to divide my time so that everyone will be happy. it sucks. really. i cant stand it alr. how i wish i can dig a hole and hide in it FOREVER. ya. sucks. and tt bastard sl didnt reply me at all. i don like it. saw him online. he didnt bother talking to me. i guess wad he told me last monday was all a joke to him. fine. but i choose to be the silly one who still believes him...

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