well i havent blogged for one wk. lets see what happened...

boring wk though.

got back my tests results. FAILED of cos. what's the surprise right. haha. scored 4/15 for physics and 5/12 for maths. un-satifictory for statics. no idea what i got for making sense of society since i do NOT make any sense out of it. i think i did badly cos i didnt really address the question. how screwed up can i get. haha.

tuesday was our 3rd month anniversary. nothing much also. met him, had dinner chatted, blah blah blah. i gave him this glass bottle filled with stars. so not original i know, but hey, i have NO time alrights! haha. how sincere can i get.

met charlene last night!!! it was so fun man. havent seen her in a long time. haha. had dinner at far east. this hainanese chicken rice? haha not bad ba. den we walked around. many of the shops were closed due to renovations. hopped into this accessory shop and no surprise that we bought earrings AGAIN. haha we seem to be getting earrings together all the time. headed down to boarders. took many crazy artsy shots. thanx to miss Q. some were really nice. haha. oh ya, shopping centres at night are very quiet and pleasent. i like it there. =) talked and crapped. miss the old old old times that we had.

supposed to meet kailin today.but ya. dad popped out of nowhere in school and gave me a shock. so ya, had to rush home. sorry dear. nxt wk lunch i promise. its all set for u u and only u! hahaha

so now im home slacking and doing nothing when im suppsoed to be doing my tutorials and watching webcast. damn it.

he called me this afternoon to ask me out. he actually ASKED ME OUT!!! i think pigs can fly already. haha. but ya like i have said a million and one times, the fact that seeing him in person would be a surprise itself. so mayb i will get surprised tmr? haha. whatever. im not putting too much hope on it. he told me he will confirm the time with me tmr cause he has no idea what time is he booking out. i asked roughly what time cos i have to make new contacts and meet charlene to shop. he replied, late afternoon can? i said, shd be ok. so meet where? he didnt reply. lalala. sometimes i feel like asking to go eat a pile of SHIT. cos i dont want to be bothered by him anymore. jy asked me to tell him, if he doesnt turn up, i will not meet him anymore. i have had it. haha. i think its not a bad idea. =) asshole. part of me wants and not want to meet him. cos i know he will not treat me as well as wj would. im more to wj's side now. haha. yup =) i hope

would be going to sentosa on sunday!!! yeah! i havent been there for more than one month! i want to get my tan back. HURRY!! wj will be going along too. =) miss the ball, miss the sun! haha

school seems boring to me. very boring in fact.
i dont laugh as much as i used to,
i dont talk as much as i used to,
i dont talk OUT LOUD as i used to,
i dont interact as much as i used to,
i always keep to my own group of friends,
i always stay in my room,
i always want to sleep,
i always want more time and space for myself,
i always laugh along (ok that contradicts my previous pt but wad the heck),
i cant seem to concentrate,
i cant seem to be myself,
i cant seem to act myself,
i cant seem to do the things that i want to,
... ... ... ...

i feel ... ... ... TRAPPED

my dad is stressing me out again.as usual. he just pointed out to me his cert hanging on the wall.
read: FIRST CLASS HONOURS.

thanks alot dad. i really needed that. i know to him, it is some sort of encouragement for me, but sorry, i dont look at it that way. i just need to OTOT. which in quite impossible in a school like NUS. one week, one month, very soon one year will pass in a blink of an eye. and i wonder would i still be in this school. haha. seriously. i dont think im cut out for being an undergrad. of nono, thats looking down on myself. but being an undergrad in NUS, taking MECHANICAL ENGINEERING. ok thats bad.

lets hope that tmr will be a better day for me and everyone. =)

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