hmm didnt do anything much this wkend. test on saturday sucked as usual. haha what can i expect when i did not study as hard for it?! arghs. wells. cant do much about it. went to his house in the evening. just to see him, cause he's sick. hai hope he gets better. think he's in pain. cos he does not smile as much. haha. dont know la. arghs. exam stress is getting to me.

there is vball trials this wed. but i guess i wuoldnt be going ba. suddenly dont feel like. what to do. i am so lousy. dont think i want to go there and throw my face. haha. i cant even spike and serve properly now! to think that i have been playing for so long. blame it on my POOR foundation. fark. damn. whatever. i feel lousy in everything that i do. BAH!

miss my family. miss everything as usual. hai. this teaches me one thing, it is not good to stay in hall. haha or maybe its just me. does my posts really sound depressing everytime? sorry man. haha it is because i am feeling like shit all the time. i am getting tired. really. i cant be bothered to think about what others think of me, about my actions. i think i am getting immuned to it. haha. i used to be very bothered about such stuff. then again, it seems like a waste of time. right? i have to learn to be happy, be cheerful. sometimes i just wish to hide in my room. so i dont have to bother about the people outside. haha.

oh no, i am sounding depressed again. i guess i need something to cheer me up, make me happy, make me smile all over again.

basketball trainings tomorrow at 4pm. DAMN. i wonder why the hell did i re-joined bball. what the hell is wrong with me?! i hope i can play as well. i havent played in 2 weeks! hai. im so hopeless. i have been falling sick, getting injured ever since i came to hall. now my stupid ingrown nail is killing me. its damn painful. and i cant even walk properly, how am i going to RUN around the bloody court tomorrow?! it is not that i dont want to tell them that i cant play, but it is because i am constantly feeling unwell, that i am afraid that they might see it as i am giving excuses. ok fine, sometimes i am. but most of the time i am not. really. haha.

this saturday there is handball tranining with the guys. i cant go. GREAT. i have dental appointment. BAH. they will be going to the courts to play. damn it. i want to go man! can practice shooting! so fun! the only thing i like about handball is the shooting part. i think it is damn cool. haha those pro players, wah liao. damn zai la. haha.

holidays on tuesday and thursday and where will i be? yes, no surprise, in the bloody room of mine. i think most of the time i will be slacking again. like now. haha. shit. i just cant find the motivation to study. this wkend will be going back home. and hopefully meet anli to study. haha where? starbucks?! hahaha. i miss that place. really. to think we used to go there early in the morning to 'chop' seats. but somehow there would be people even earlier than us. -_- ya i just miss the place. haha. i want to go back! lol

going back to study. i have no idea why am i blogging. my life is so boring. i need some excitment! =)

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