hmm one thing i dont like, is that when i walk to into a room, and everyone goes quiet. i mean even if u dont want me to hear what u are saying, u dont have to make it so obvious that i SHOULD NOT even be there. oh SORRY that i even stepped into ur bloody room. its not like i WANT to. cause i left my clothes in ur room. if not i wouldnt even be there. ya what a neighbour.

i feel that in uni, everyone is wearing a mask. i dont like the way she is doing things. sometimes her actions really make me want to hurl. *pukesallover* HA but ya. its like acting cute, but not in those kind of pertty girls acting cute that kind. hmm haha i dont know how to put it. but ya. nevermind. and she seems to know like EVERYBODY. then when people say hi to her and she does not really know them, she will say do i know her/him? wtf like i know. YOU should know better right. so when the coach asks you to if you are staying for the 3 years because he wishes to coach for the next 3 years, what does that make u? superstar? i dont know. maybe he sees the potential in you. congrats.

please, i was just telling/complaining to lydia. i mean i have been playing ball for like since secondary school, definately my skills would be better then you right? no matter how lousy i am, i would STILL be slightly better than you. BAH! why do i even bother? people might see me as jealous. but no i am not. maybe we are just not on the same frequency. whatever. but i dont have a choice, i have to see u for another semester. or maybe another one and a half years IF i am able to stay next year. haha.

secondary school life is the BEST man. you dont have to worry about what others think of you. everything is so relaxed. you can be yourself anytime of the day. whenever you want. if u do or say something stupid, just laugh it off then! haha who cares man! it is even more fun when u have friends like adeline and anli. haha. for girls la. they know when to have fun. i guess i was too reserved in the past. haha. some said i have changed, i hope it is for the better. =)

looking at photos really makes me want to go back to the past. the times spent in school mugging like shit after school till about 7pm. when the old uncle is about to lock the gates. he will tell us which gate is still left open just for us. so nice right? haha. those days when i was forced to listen to the guys' sex talk or education. haha. with weechoon sitting in front of me in class, chuanming beside me, what do u expect?! haha. they can tell me things about girls that I dont even know! and then they will come and tell me, ni shi nu ren ni bu shi dao?! hai yao wo men gen ni shuo?' what the hell. haha. us vandalising the place. haha. cannot make it. so many more memories kept within me.

sec 2 was quite fun too! haha. in a volleyball class, of cos we will play ball in class right?! haha can u imagine how many balls were confiscated? us playing in class, at the coridoor, grass patch below, blah blah. the fans were spoilt or appears to be dropping cos of us, 2Benevloence. cupboards came off, shelves dropped, cutrains off, chairs and tables spoilt. haha. we were like distroying the classroom man! haha. and not forgetting yongsheng's cyote dance!! how to forget that man?! he was 'dancing' on the table top and suddenly, 'buang'! haha his leg was through the table. haha. the few of us around the place were laughing like nuts! and we couldnt stop. he was so paisae but laughed it off. that was priceless. then when we were in sec 3, mr yue took photos of vandalisation in school, and so happen to take a photo of that particular table. i tell u, we were all laughing in the hall AGAIN. haha. i cant believe it. it was almost 5 years ago. time realy flies. and the episode with py, AMY. remember? haha. she kept asking me to accept him. then when i didnt want to, she kept asking WHYWHYWHY. like how i know why. so just stop it! and someone adressing me as dasao. omg. i hated it like shit! haha. well glad tt yilin jingting and i went to the same class in sec 3. =) then another story begins. haha.

life's never the same with those guys.

i dont know. maybe i am comparing it to the past, thats why it sounded so fun. now life is really dull. i really dont like hall sometimes. but thank god for lydia and some others. they have their own politics. sometimes i wished i could be like lydia. she really bo chap about what others think. i think i should learn from her. i am too self-concious. which sometimes its really bad. cos ya. i dont know how to put it. haha. i should learn to relax and be myself. said in my previous post, i cant be myself. i am so restricted, i cant do this and that. why the fuck am i restricting myself?! i feel stupid. haha. great.

went to the doctor's yesterday. had fever and throat infection. she asked me to do a blood test. omg. i wanted to just faint on the spot. haha when the nurse said that she needed to inject. i wanted to cry. and i did. silly right. haha but i couldnt help it! i was really scared! haha. ok fine. go ahead and laugh all u want. haha. to think injecting once was bad, i had it TWICE!! *fainted* the first nurse said that she couldnt find my veins cos its too fine. hmmmm im so fat and you cant find? haha. then another nurse came and helped. maybe my right hand has thinner skin la ya. haha >.< i was really crying. haha and i think the whole clinic knows la. so paisae.

hai. i just want to be happier and relaxed. just let everything go with the flow. no stress and all. but i know thats almost impossible. exams are nearing the corner and what the hell am i doing online blogging and chatting?! ya. keep telling myself still have time. but fark. there is NO time left! i am so behind time man. and i really have to catch up. i really want to pass. i regret not paying attention in classes and skipping lectures. i promise not to slip anymore. so can i hope and pray to pass this semester?! of cos with hard work! hahaha =)

wake up!!! =)

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