hmmm another week passed le.and i havent blogged! too little time for myself. i always seem to be having trainings or meetings or slacking abit. haha.

nothing much happened. as usual. who bothers about my boring life? haha. went over to his house on tuesday. usual dinner and talking lor.

met kailin on friday for lunch! hahaha. miss u babe. i miss all my friends! really. i miss them all. its one of the rare few moments where i can be totally at ease and not really bothering what the other person will think of me. haha. turn back time is what i always want and say. but i know that it'll never happen. haha =)


kailin and me

my other LIM! =)

my daughter and brenda! miss them loads

oh ya! that day i tried tying my hair with that stick and it stayed! hahaha i was so happy!! lol =) took some pics of it. hee.



the last post i said i went out with charlene i think. took lots of photos! haha too many alr. some are on friendster alr. haah.

i like this one. tilt tilt tilt

now i know how my ponytail looks like frm the side. =)

if only i was as thin as i looked in the photo. hmm though its not that thin afterall. haha. but better then in real life huh. lol

i feel like my head is gg to break frm the look of it. haha

anyway life has been pretty ok. except for the fact that i cant catch up on my tutorials like i would want to. i am trying. i really am. i did my math tutorial and trying to do my physics one. i just need some more time. can anyone give me time? haha. ok im talking rubbish. but the fact is that im already starting to get nervous and panicky. really want to pass this sem. god help me. haha. ya. i just donwant to hug buddah's leg last minute. haha

things are getting better with him. im glad =) just dont want any argurments and unhappiness ba. told him a million times that i donwant to give him empty promises because i dont see a point in doing so. and he knows that i have a blog. but i am just not ready to let him know about it. i mean if u have read, there are still so many posts about sl when i was already with wj. i dont want him to read about those. i really dont. so whenever he asks me about it, i will try to change the topic. dear,its not that i dont want u to read, i just dont want u to read about my thoughts and feelings for him. but thats all in the past. im over him now. =)

wj came over last week and we took some photos. haha




he's too busy eating to be bothered about me. what a boyfriend right. haha. PIG.

hmmm i read part of wj's blog. it had archives. and being the busybody that i am, i went to read some of his past entries. no surprise for guessing it right. he talking about his ex. c a l y n n e. im not very interested in her la. but i can get quite jealous if u know what i mean. i get jealous easily. just that i dont want to show it. haha. stupid right. their 4 YEARS anniversary was on 261104 haha ok not whole 4 years la. but still after breaking and patching, they can go on for 4 years! wtf. and both of us havent crossed the 4 month line, i cant imagine 4 bloody years. its really long u know. and considering the fact that they were together since they were 13 or 14. hmm thats alot. people i see last time in secondary school, saying i love u u love me. i think that its a whole load of rubbish. promises ARE meant to be broken. tell me, who has lasted for so long? those couples i know in secondary school still broke up in the end. hmmm u can say that i 'pei fu' them ba. well. i am trying not to think about them. cause i dont want to compare. i am so afraid that he starts comparing me to her. i dont want that. i dont know how to put it to words. just yup. haha. nevermind. i think i am blabbering on and on about something which is not important. wells. we'll see about that in a few months time. (if we can last that few months). haha. i hope we do. =)

that day online, while i was talking to zq, i said something i shouldnt have. haha. he was asking me to intro cute girls to him as usual. -_- i said 'me la me la. im available' haha wrong choice of words, cause he asked is it true. then i kept 'playing' with him, asking him why why why. haha. and till a point i think he got quite fed up. so i asked him to look at my display. and ya i guess he was really not happy he went offline. haha. i messaged him lor. asked what was wrong and apologised for just now. he replied'cos i like u ma.' stunned. haha i dont know if he means it or just trying to make fun of me. i asked 'really ah?' he replied 'does it matter...(i forgot)' haha. but ya it doesnt really matter. haha. i already have wj.

i should start closing my door every night. if not i cant concentrate (or concentrate more) on my work. haha. i like to look outside and at people who walks past.

i miss my home. went back that day for dinner. saw my grandma. she's not looking too good. i dont want anything to happen to her. but then, wj told me, she's old already and her body might not be able to take it. ask me not to take things too hard. hmm i know what he means. i just cant accept that fact and i dont want to appect THAT fact. i know it will happen some day or another. people around u will start to pass. just that i dont know. i dont know if i can take it. i am actually very fragile inside. haha why am i saying this out. but ya. i really am. i think i will feel like dying lor. hai. see how ba. =(

haha i dont reli know what to write. my life is like so boring. im staying in hall, everyday in nus. how happening can it get right. haha.

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