bloody hell. im so fucking screwed up man. my exams are all screwed up. statics paper just now. omg. i only knew how to do 15 marks worth of the questions. and it is because the question asked us to prove the equation. omg. kill me man. haha

i really want to cry, shout, scream, what have you. haha but i dont know. i dont know how. i feel abit numb. i just pray that i dont get kicked out my nus. i promise i will try harder next semester. please give me a chance. i feel so bad. . .

exams will end in 22 hours time. but i dont know if i should be happy or sad. happy that its over, sad because the results will come out damn soon. omg. im so freaking screwed up. howhowhow. haha like who will answer me. hai i dono la. just rambling on and on. if only i could sleep and die. i bet no one will notice. like what's the difference if i am not around right?

i guess this feeling i have inside me now is just pure guilt. that i didnt study hard enough. hmmm but then again, i think this guilt tends more towards letting my family down.

yesyes people will say, don worry. i am sure u will pass. but im sure you had this feeling after the paper whereby you know you did not do well. i am feeling a thousand times worse. hai.

damn it.

kill me.

22 more hours. i will play and worry later.

shuo dao lai, i did spend 2 weeks studying my ass off. just that NONE OF WHAT I STUDIED CAME OUT. ok thats not really as excuse. but well. haha. nvm. its true! nothing i have practiced came out. nothing looked familiar in the paper. damn it. i think tomorrow will be much worse. cos i have no idea how to do math! to think i used to like and score well in math. HAHA. ya right. everything seems sucky now. and i am not pms-ing.

i just hope to continue my study in nus the next semester. pray for me. i CONFIRM will have to retake some modules. mayb all even. =(

[[ . ]]* |12:34 PM|