exams are finally OVER! but why am i not feeling the relief and happiness that i should. guess its the guilt again i guess. dont really want to elaborate on the paper today. it sucked, just like the rest. cos i did not practice my differential equations. screwed. damn. haha. whatever

oh, during the test, this song kept playing in my mind! haha i think its stupid but i dont know why. think its cos i have been listening to it too much. haha

Beauty and the Beast: Be Our Guest
you know the part where belle was hungry and went to the kitchen to look for food and Lumiere, Mrs. Potts, the clock and other kitchenware prepared dinner? haha yup.

Be our guest!
Be our guest!
Put our service to the test
Tie a napkin round you neck, cherie
And we'll provide the rest
Soup du jour!Hot hors d'oeuvres!
Why, we only live to serve
Try the grey stuff, it's delicious
Don't believe me?
Ask the dishes!
They can sing, they can dance!
After all, miss, this is France!
And a dinner here is never second best
Go on, unfold your menu
Take a glance, and then you'll
Be our guestOui, our guest!
Be our guest
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then another part was where Lumiere was singing about that clock. shit, i dont know how to spell his name. haha anyway. there was salt being sprinkled on them, then as Lumiere sings, Clock gives that very bo chap and sian diao look. and shaking the piled up salt from his 'hands'. i think its damn funny.

Life is so unnerving
For a servant who's not serving
He's not whole without a soul to wait upon
Ah, those good old days when we were useful
Suddenly, those good old days are gone
Ten years, we've been rusting
Needing so much more than dusting
Needing exercise-a chance to use our skills
Most days, we just lay around the castle
Flabby, fat, and lazy
You walked in and ups-a-daisy!

ok..
i want to party and play. but i dont know if i should. ok fine. i should and i will. but the thought of failing looms in my puny brain. =( dono la. and my mum has to add salt to the wound.

ma: how was your paper yesterday and today?
me: die lor. sure one. everything dono how to do.
ma: didnt study the correct way (or sth) right. so what are u gg to do about it
me: (stunned) ma i just finished my paper. and anyway i dont even know if i will pass or fail, how i know what am i suppsoed to do during december. (thinks to myself:play all the way?) and next semester we will be taking different modules already. and i have to know if i pass or fail before i can prepare right.
ma: den when will you know your results?
me: i dont know. no idea.
ma: how can you not know?!
me: why must i know? you think im in secondary school or jc where there will be marking days and then you get your report cards back isit? i dont know when la. ask daddy lor.
ma: (background i think my aunt asked her to let me relax or sth, let me have my lunch and play, don keep asking.) ok la. then you go and have your lunch.
me: ok. bye.

sometimes she can really get damn irritating. i know that she cares. but there are times when your precious lao da just want to have some time alone and stop asking those questions when i myself dont have answers to them! arghs. what the hell. i dont know la. BAH.

ok, enough with exams. hmm but then again, i know i will come back to this topic soon enough. haha

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is it me or are my friends just drifting away. i dont know. like B, we used to be so close when we were in jc. now when i talk to her online, she like so bo chap. and when i asked her how was she, the first thing she said was, when are you going to return me my card. WHAT THE FUCK. its not like i dont want to return you your stupid card right. its cos i havent seen you for like half a year. what do you want me to do? go all the way to your house just to return you? HAHA. sorry man. forget it. even if you dont want to talk to me, just at least reply something decent la. forget it la. next time i think i will just keep to myself.

am i too self consious? i keep thinking to myself. if i do or dont do this or that, what will they think about me, blah blah. i think i am silly. and stupid. why should i bother. ok maybe to a certain extent i should. but what the hell! arghs. i dont know why am i feeling like this also. havent felt like this in a long time.

anyway meeting charlene later together with wj. i need a haircut. though there isnt much left of my hair. haha. but ya if i dont cut it soon, a bush fire will start. its so dry at the ends! yucks! hai. at least i still have my primary school and secondary school friends to rely on. i hope. haha. =) guess i am thinking too much again. hai cant help it.

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meeting weijie later. yeah. and watching harry potter tomorrow! hahaha i cant wait. maybe thats something for me to look forward to. also, we will be watching Corpse Bride and Beauty and the Beast. haha poor thing, have to pei this silly gf watch this kind of stupid show. hahaha. too bad.. who ask him to be my boyfriend. haha.

sentosa on saturday!!! i can hardly wait ! =) YEAH! i need a good tan!

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