hmmm too much to write. i dont know where to start. i guess i should summerise everything.

the KL trip was good. though i didnt get many things. bought stuff that i could buy in spore, exc for a cheaper price. haha but it was a valuable trip. i got to know my friend all over again. she made me realise that i have taken things for granted and that there are more to like than what it seems. it is nice to help your friends. it is good to spend more time with ur family and loved ones. know them, konw the small small details about them. and REMEMBER them. i guess i havent been doing much of that. come to think of it, what do i know about my family, boyfriend and even close friends. just THAT much. so much reflecting to do. and to take note too. thanks chin, for knocking some sense into me. =) anyway the 2 guys, jingxiang and chengyu were very nice too. glad we were all able to click. haha. and the late nights playing bridge. i really enjoyed it. somehow 3 days 2 nights seems too short. i feel very can kui when i see how the guys shop for their friends back in spore. they are so xi xin. and they are very generous with what they get. well, it was a very good trip overall. im happy. =)
bought this hot coral coloured adidas bag. haha RM 80 bucks. not bad la. haha.

results were bad. very bad. dont ask. i was depressed and the first person who called me was lydia. thanks girl. i really appreciate it loads. and where was my dearest wj? playing mahjiong. haha fine there was nothing he could do oso. and i made him lose money in the end. sorry. haha. i was so sad i wanted to finish a whole tub of ice cream. who cares about the fat content at that point of time. my dad too. i think i have failed as a daughter. but then again, doesnt mean that my dad is smart, his daughter has to be smart too. he gave me the wrong genes. im stupid. he might have encouraged me before the results came out, but when i told him my grades and CAP, i gathered that he freaked out. msged me to quit all hall activities and IVP now. its an order! with an exclaimation mark for both sentences. damn. i dont see the connection btw IHG and grades. the trng started after the exams. ok fine, mayb some before. i just studied the wrong way i suppose. will strive hard to get better grades. and i WILL. wait and see. no thanks to those who rubbed it in when u had much better grades. and damn it to those who said it is IMPOSSIBLE to fail in NUS. if it is impossible to fail, then who will fail?! u mean everyone will pass?! dream on. ive seen my dad marking papers. people DO fail. im not blind. i will work hard. PTL, remember to nag at me ok? thanks for being there. =)
so now i have to retake my physics I. like WHO fails physics. then who is going to take with me?! howhowhow... im sad.

i was so sad that i decided to paint my toenails black!


christmas was spent with him. =) it was nice. dont know why i will feel that as long as we're spending time together, anything that we do is just fine. even if we're doing nothing. *smiles i want to thank him for spending time with me, for being my punching bag, for letting me whine and complain all the time, for always tking care of me, for looking out for me, and most of all, for being there for me dear. =) i am learning to treasure people around me. especially people who cares. thanks dear.

had dinner at NYDC after watching the chronicles of narnia. i thought it was a very good show. though draggy at the start. but overall i give it 4 stars. love the presentation of the war and witch. smooth flowing. though disappointed that the witch just died like that after lion jumped on her. anyway dinner was good. haha its nice to have something good once in a while. =)









took some photos at heerens. haha i love the lighting. makes us look gooddd. haha =)






look at how thin his fingers are!! they are even thinner than mine can. haha


my phone takes good pictues too! haha


omg i can wear his uniform. haha i miss wearing uniforms!


mimi was very guai! she let me take photos of her! =) hahaha. managed to catch afew of them its so sweet! how cute can she get! hahaha. she likes to scare me like jumping onto the bed without notice. and sometimes i will accidentally kick her off the bed cos i didnt know that she was there. haha. she's lovely! =)







had steamboat at marina with wj and his working friends. im like the oldest there la. haha. but it was fun to have dinner with them. most of them are 2 yrs younger than me. listening to their conversations make me feel so old. its crapy but funny. and ive become the prawn queen and wj the prawn king. haha. why? because we were shelling the whole load of prawns for ourselves and for them! haha. and still got prawn tai hou. lol. its damn kiddish la. but cute.





met jiaying just now. had dinner. i miss talking to her. she has been my best friend since PY, which is like 14 years already! nxt yr 15. haha omg time really flies man. we're getting old. she's studying in london. currently having her holidays so back in spore. she gave me this very sweet pair of earrings. its simple and nice. just the way i like it. though it was only a short meet up, im very glad that we're still keeping in touch with each other, maintaining this friendship of ours. haha.



my grandma called me just now, asking me when will i be going home. i said this wkend, and that i dont want to go home to the naggings, scoldings and arguements with my family, especially my dad. i am sick of it. i dont want to hear any of it. but something made me cry.
ah ma: why dont want to go home?
me: go home for what?
ah ma: come back to see ah ma la.
me: orh. that is the only reason im going home for.
the come back to see ah ma made me cry. haha silly i know. but i know she misses me as much as i miss her. i really do. her health is not good and i am very worried about her. hai. i just want her to be safe and healthy. but age is catching up...

sometimes i wonder why do i smile so much. is it necessary. i can just be anti social and hide in my room all day long. like what i am doing now. haha. but i choose not to. sometimes i will talk to my neighbours. i miss lovable 601. come back soon ok! imiss nua-ing on ur bed. hugging ur distorted pig and whining to u. hahaha. i dont know. i think im going into depression. haha just without the suicide part. i dont know. i want to be happy. i want people around me to be happy. like what chin said, u smile and make people around u happy too. erm something like that la. haha. just.. can anyone understand me at all? i guess now. im talking incoherently. hai. just sometimes i wish someone can understand me well. not that my bf doesnt. aiyah. i dont know la.

i need to do some catching up with my friends. i seem to be updated about their lifes by reading their blogs. some dont even have. hai.

like miss lim. i wonder how is she and her beloved. they seem very sweet tgt. and i wana box him. he cant recognise me! wei! im ur gf's best friend too ok! *bish

and brenda. we've become so distant. even if i were to ask her out, i dont even know if she will agree or not. miss the times we had. i really do. and your card is still with me. i feel guilty holding on to it for so long. im sorry. hope you're doing fine and your mum is well. =)

beisi, another busy girl in ntu. taking part in so many activities. if not for the inter hall games with NTU, i doubt i can even meet up with you. haha.

gina, sorry keep saying will go out with u but it never seem to become reailty. i just cant find the time. i will one day. i promise.

secondary school girls, haha im glad that we have been meeting up and chatting. its good to talk about the old times. i think they are the best times though i think i have missed out on alot of stuff. hahaha.

sometimes its not that i dont want to talk to them. but when i try to talk to them online, the replies i get are not what i expected. like just replying what i ask. i mean ok, im boring or whatever. but erm. i dont know how to say. i feel sad when you dont seem to bother when im trying to ask how are you. its quite sad. or maybe its just me. i dont want to lose my friends just like that.

this is a long post. just wanted to type and keep my thoughts somewhere. sorry if its boring. haha

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