i dreamt that i failed 2 modules. each with an * beside. indicating a fail. hai. im so dead. how. nothing can help me now. this feeling of emptyness inside.

i am going to KL nxt wk! yeah! but some part of me just feels too guilty to enjoy and shop. guilty. that word doesnt seem to get out of my puny brain. hai. people say that it is difficult to fail in NUS. i think otherwise. if some dont fail, then who will be the ones that will be the first few from the bottom up?! i bet u a thousand bucks that yours truly will definately be one of them. =(

i am sad.

i wonder, is it me emitting too much heat or is it too warm outside. haha i dont know. i can feel like my skin is very warm. but the blinds are drawn. and spending too much time in this small room is detremental. haha. my room is in a huge mess and i dont feel like cleaning it AT ALL. haha. rlei. looking at it makes me sad sometimes. haha. arghs. i wished i was like harry potter, one swing of the wand and everything will be in place. haha. ya right. in my dreams maybe.

then again, on a brighter note, i have been meeting quite often this wk! though he was busy like shit. and so stressed up, im glad its over. haha. its nice spending time with him. every little thing counts. =) like i said before, im eeasily contented.

and i finally met my best friend in a long time! the last time i saw her was like 1 or 2 months ago! hahaha. see the contrast. she's forever THAT thin. and where does all her fats go to?! MEE. arghs. hahaha. but ya it was nice meeting up with her. =) im happy. haha



he had a presentation that morning. so he had to wear formal. then i told him, eh it is the FIRST time i see u wear your pants so high. hahaha. i couldnt stop laughing. cos his pants are always so baggy and at his waist. like going to drop anytime. haha but i think he looks damn smart in the buttondown shirt. =) i like guys in button downs and polo tees. =) hahaha.




haha seriously i wana laugh when i look at him in formalwear. =)


my horrible fat legs and huge hips. anyone want some!? haha i know charlene wants. lol


can u pls see how thin his fingers look?! mine looks short and stubby compared to his. >.<





well, how can u forget tweety and sly?! hahaha. so cute! i cant find bugs though. haha.

training last night sucked. i cant spike. hahah we did this drill that left my legs aching like shit. up till now. its still aching like shit. hahaha. but it was fun la. rlei =) i managed to block a few balls. =) yeah! and rena is going to SA! omg. hahaha seriously speaking, im not surprised. haha. aft trng, mae, huiqing and me went for dinner. met janet xiuyi and rena there. omg they were damn funny la. haha. i really laughed till i was so full. hahaha. its nice to know them and have them as teammates. i hope i can get into the team =) pray for me pls. haha. they're very friendly. and im surprised that they're so commical! haha. rlei. it was an enjoyable dinner. and i havent laughed so hard in a long time. haha. i will jiayou to train hard for IVP. i will. i have to. its something that i can do and i want to do it well. i know my skills are there. i hope. haha hmm ok fine. i sound contradicting. but whatever. haha. i will strive harder. =)

i miss my home! going home tonight! yeah! my grandma is bound to scream. haha why am i so tanned. lol. i miss everyone. and i hope i will be getting a new phone this wkend. the phone that i wanted wad FREE with 2 year plan for last wkend. it was a wkend special. damn it. now it costs 198. arghs. BAH. haha. packing stuff soon! =) yayness! =) hahaha

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