its only 4 hours to the eve of new year. how time flies. just thought of doing some reflections for the past year. long post. dont fall asleep. or u can choose to click on the cross button at the top. =) this year has been mostly bad. i hope the coming year will be a good and fruitful one. =)

janurary - february

i worked at NETS for about a month. the people there where very nice and friendly but can put on a mask sometimes too. its obvious. the usual politics and stuff. but this lady, stella was really nice. first impression of her was bad cos she looked so fierce! haha. i was even afraid of her. but ya, realised she was in fact very patient. haha.

got together with kenny, my OGL on the 9th jan. =) a very nice guy to be with. pity i didnt treasure him. i took him for granted. maybe because i didnt know what i wanted at that time. seriously, a very nice guy. lasted for about 2 months. glad that he has found another girl he loves.

started work at IDA on the 14th february. haha i will definately remember this date. who wants to work on valentines's day?! haha. started work as admin assistant. cos this lady serene was on maternaty leave. worked at that department for 3 months before she came back. got to know the people there. they were really nice. i thought that those at NETS were nice, IDA was even better. even the bosses were nice. =) after the 3 months there, the boss, of another department hired me. she's so friendly and nice to talk to im serious. that u will find it hip to have a mum like that. haha. got to know jingyu. nice girl too. (sorry that my vocab consists of only nice.) lunch kahkis. she was like my close friend during my time there. we will play online games almost everyday cos the work there was very slack. stayed till end of june. really enjoyed my stay there and i hope that i will have the chance to work there again. tough competition there.

march - june

results of A levels were out on the 4th march. went to school to collect it. my grades were BCC and GP B3. i was overjoyed. i thought i will do even worse for it. and GP too. i thought i will even fail. i never had confidence in my english since secondary school. and having a B3 was something i will never dream about. thanked mr mark lim. our papa. he was so patient in teaching and never once gave up hope on me. he just asked meto buck up and study hard. find him if i ever need help. where to find such a teacher! and moreover he's handsome! hahaha

besides working, i think my tao hua yun was at its peak. haha i gathered those guys all had many stamps stuck to their eyes. i have no idea what they see in me. got to know this one guy. shaoliang. he brought the most pain, and memories to me. (during this time only la) haha. we talked on the phone for one whole month everyday. talking to him makes me feel happy. time flies when we're on the phone. somehow we seem to have endless things to talk about. also maybe because of the fact that he hen hui shuo hua. haha but ya. he brightened up my days. we were even calling each other dear. well. sad to say, i havent met him in person before. silly i know. friends were angry at him for me. and some trying to knock some sense into me that he isnt as good as he seems. wells. i remembered one night, 26april, i was having dinner with bernice and beisi when he msged me. he said that he was at my house void deck. omg i wanted to faint. i msged and called him. but he just didnt want to answer my calls. asshole. haha i was excited. but i couldnt leave my friends there right. lol. after that day, he seldom msg or even called. to think that he gave baltent hints that he was interested in me. dont really want to elaborate on him. but if u had read my blog, i think those posts in may and june were all 'delicated' to him. haha.

another guy was even better. asked me to be his girlfriend just after meeting him for a while. like 3-4 hours?! he kept asking me to try and try. wtf. come on, i only know u for a few weeks leh.

then there was colin, he asked me to do a survey along tampines one day. had to take down the name and contact. ok fine, i just gave since it was stated on the survey form. then he called me one night. haha u must be kidding me. fine. no problem knowing another friend. but the whole phone conversations were just about him and army. HELLO. i am NOT interested in your army life thank you. and whenever i tried to change topic, somehow it will be back to himself again. what a guy. BAH. i had to fake him that my handphone no batt or i left my phone at my friend's house. -_-

and a senior from NUS. studying ME too. nice guy to talk to. been talking to him online almost everyday while working in IDA. still talking to him sometimes. haha. generally a nice person too. =)

cant remember others. but ya. haha at that time i was only interested in shaoliang.

june

attended camps. the camp that i thought was the best was Cultural Activities Club FOC. the OGLs were great and so were the councillors in charge of our group. we clicked well and most of us are still in contact with each other. haha. so happens that the 4 people in our group were the ONLY ME students in year 1 ME. and 3 of us are in the same group, AND, kenny in the same class as me. haha. count the probability. haha. joanne, ruoxuan and i. bitching and laughing like nobody's business. talking with them feels good. haha they know how to have fun. its reli nice hanging out with them. and the usual sentosa outing weekly. playing beach vball. even eugene has become good at it man. haha. jiayou! =)

i think the best thing that had happened this year was on the 24th june. the day when i met weijie. =) then, the next was on the 27th june when we got together. fast i know. but see! we're still together right. hahaha. seriously, he's one of the few guys left that is so caring, thoughtful about everything and will take such good care of me. haha. time spent with him just felt so right. in the one month that we were together, i had to attend 2 camps. haah poor guy. we didnt even spend the first month anniversary together! =( he makes me feel so loved.

though we might seem loving and nice together, of course there will be times of bitterness. like when i have no idea what is on his mind and when he doesnt want to share it with me, i will start tearing. cos i am too pek cek that i cry. haha. silly. i tell him that. and i can see that he's trying to change too. we just need time.

then i will tell him that i wanted to come to uni to find a boyfriend. i dont know what happened in between and we got together. haha. and i can imagine his expression. that whatever look. haha and then asking me to go find la. lol. so cute.

i dont like to give him promises and i have told him so. i dont believe in telling someone i will love you forever or whatever forever. u will never know what the future holds. so i will just tell him that i would want to be with him for as long as possible. haha.

i am insecure with myself. somehow i will always think that he will go back to his ex girlfriends. haha silly right. he assured me that he will not. he had better not. or else i will BOX him. muahaha. i dont know why, but i am so afraid that he will compare me to his ex even though i know that he will not. he told me before. lol. how silly can i get? well, a girl can get insecure right? haha. especially the ex girlfriend of 4 years. its just... erm... sooo longggg. i havent known another person who has/had been together for 4 years!? haha. wells.. ya. and im an easily jealous girl. opps.

somehow i feel that he has already been very sui bian with me. he told me that he used to control what his girlfriends wear. 0.0 no thanks. maybe i am too open. and i hang around with guys. he doesnt really like me being too close to them in case they might like me. hahaha. i'll always ask him not to worry, and say, ur girlfriend is not that pretty, dont have to worry laaa. and his usual expression on the face again. haha.

6 months has passed and we're still going strong. just like being beside him. very nice to hug. then again, he's too thin. haha will tell him that if he doesnt eat more, i will be able to carry him one day. lol.

everyone around me says that he's a gem and i should treasure him. yes i know. i will treasure him. =) 6 months passed in a blink of an eye. i hope that there will be many more months to spend with him.

school term and hall life

hmmm nothing much i would like to elaborate. i slacked and played too much that i failed. im just waiting for my warning letter to be put into my mail box one of these days. sorry to daddy. i really am. i will strive harder the next sem. i have to anyway. those who see me slacking, please nag at me please. haha. i will jiayou! put in all the fats in my body and get a cap of 3 plus. i will study. then print money during the exam period and park myself at starbucks. haha.

hall. hmm i just have to say that i am very glad to have known lydia and zhao. really. especially lydia. haha she just makes me smile too! =) her laughter is so distinct and seeing her smile will brighten up your day. haha miss going into her room and whine. lol sorry for being too whiny. but ya. come back soon laa. i miss talking crap to u leh! hahaha. im sad to say that i am not very close with the other people. maybe because we are of different frequencies? but then, some of them are really very nice people i can tell. i guess i will miss hall life if i dont stay there. but then again, i miss home. i miss my grandma. i am so happy being home now.

others

i miss my friends. charlene, meichin, kailin, secondary school friends, joanne, gina, beisi, brenda, so many more. then again, i have always had the mentailty that having a few good friends are much better than having so many friends. i miss every one of them. just dont want to lose my friends. there are just THAT many people i will open up and trust. sound stupid right. ahha i can sound so pathetic sometimes.

just miss hanging around them. keep saying that i will meet up with them but i never seem to put it into action. sorry people. but i really hope that our friendship will not be affected. hai. things just doesnt seem right. maybe i am spending too much time with him. haha. thats why sometimes its good to remain single. lol.

will add on once i can remember more things to add. feels like so many things to write but cant think of it now. lol.

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scalded my hand while closing my door with a cup of maggie mee in my hand. how stupid and careless can i get? damn suay la. and my stupid phone. now when i think about it. i realy want to cry. my sister just asked me why am i using the old phone again? ya like i want to. thanks man. going to get it back tomorrow. but i doubt it will be repaired. i think its spoilt already. hai. how? im broke le and i dont want to spend money on phones. howhowhow. hai...

went shopping with charlene yesterday! haha i bought 3 top! omg. this greyish sleeveless top with flowery prints and sequines for $32. usual was $46. i will NOT pay 46bucks for that.haha then at mango. i found this purple top for only 19 bucks! lene said that it was soo worth it and i have to buy it. haha for new year. why not? and the material was good. then at zara. i bought the same polo top except that it is in purpleish pink. the colour was very sweet. nice. and it costs $19.90! its like 10bucks cheaper that when i bought it last time. idiots. BAH. haha. but ya. not bad. i seem to be lucky when i go shopping with her. lol. yeah. now i need a bottom. and i am going to wear my heels. yeah! haha. i think my feet will break man.

left about 7. while i was walking to meet wj, there was this guy who came up to me and asked if he could be friends with me. stunned. i said sorry erm no thanks and tried to walk away. but he continued to say just being friends can? i was like NO, sorry. den he said sorry sorry. -_- what the hell. stupid wj la! take so long.

i just feel like shopping and shopping. spending money. then again im broke! arghs. i need moneyyy. retail therapy? haha.

realised that i didnt have to retake the physics module. yeahness! =) im happy.

plans for tomorrow,
friendly at TJC
dental appointment
shopping with him
esplanade? fireworks?

i really want to see fireworks.... they are like my all time favourite. *smiles hope my parents allow me to go out. haha. still can remember last year 31th december too, i asked my parents if i could go out for countdown. they asked, with who? i said kenny.. shyly. haha. it was a fun night spent with him. too bad there were no fireworks..

he's having BBQ with his friends at pasir ris now. i miss him.

hai. feel like i just have sooo much to write. but they cant come out. my thoughts are incoherrent. as usual..

i really wish for a better year for 2006.

happy new year people! =)

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