i gathered that i must be too popular that even my mentor wants to see me. TOMORROW. he said he wanted a chit chat session with his dearest mantee. ok fine, i added 'dearest' but thats not the point. i can even list out questions he might be asking me. like, what happened? how are you? what went wrong? maybe you should study harder?
whatever. but he sounds nice. and also, he said he will try to make it not so painful, relaxed. like talking about my results and cap is not painful enough? i hope i dont be a fountain tmr. and guess what. i think he's the master of temasek hall. omg. well, at least i suppose. cos he asked me to meet him in TH, ask the office to direct me to the master's office. -_- just hope everything goes will tomorrow. haha

IVP started on monday. 9 jan. we played against NYP. they werent very good. and thats why i got to play 2 sets. haha. managed to block 3 balls. but i couldnt spike at all. stupid arm. restricted all my movements. it hurts when i spike and serve. must tolerate! i must! jiayou! if i dont strive hard, im not even sure i will be able to play next year. haha. one thing is for sure. the people there are very nice and friendly. haha. even janet, the coach is dman funny. =) so i can say that playing with them can be quite relaxing. =)
and monday was the first time i see a coach joking on court! haha. its really funny. i havent laughed on court before la. cos i will be too stressed to even laugh.
will be playing against NTU today. hope we will win. no, i am SURE we will win! we have the shi li! haha we have rebecca and xiuyi leh. lol. jiayou man. =)

first week of school and i missed one lect already. haha but i will study hard this semester. i have to. like i always say. cant let anyone down anymore. and i am not really interested in anymore chitchat session with them. haha.

a new school term has started, everyone is back in hall. everything is back to normal! can go to lydia's room and talk already! hahaha. and zhao too. talking to them is damn fun la. especially lydia. she and her laughter. haha.

i will learn to be happy.
i will learn to kan4 kai4 about things.
i will learn to appreciate people and things around me.
i will learn the art of tolerance.
i will learn to hmmm i suddenly forgot what i wanted to write. nehmind.
i will add on when i remember them.

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forgot who i talked to about this. something about the future boyfriend or sth.
in the past, i used to want a boyfriend who is rish, or at least drive, buy my presents, care about me, dote on me, love me, tall, handsome. haha like are there anyone who fufills this criteria? lol
now, i only want someone who loves me for who i am, whom i know cares for me, and takes good care of me.. and i have found him. =)

money and status are just secondary. it will be good if they have them. but i can do without them too. being rich is not necessarily good too. they will not know how to save since they can get almost everything they want and ask for with their golden mouth.

i do not dare to say i am rich. i am just slightly above average. just that i have parents and grandparents who dotes lots on me when i was young. i was the only child for 6 years until a monkey poped out from nowhere. ok before that, i really got almost everything that i wanted. stupid barbie dolls, pollypockets, cupcakes (dolls who can turn into a cupcake when u overturn their skirts, loved them. haha), and many others. and i had multiples of every one of them. about 5 barbies, countless pollypockets and afew cupcakes. i would cut the hair of barbies cos i thought short hair was cool and that it might grow out. haha. stupid. and then talk to myself when playing the pollypockets. coming up with stories and moving the minatures around the small pathetic places. but i have to say, it was very nice. i remembered once i wanted a barbie doll house but my parents didnt want to get it because it was too expensive. however, one day, my ahgong came home with this huge box, no surprises it was the doll house! i was damn happy! =) he dotes on me BESt. haha. it costed more than a hundred bucks. and in that time, 100bucks was no peanuts.

now, all grown up and stuff, i guess i am still living in the past. i will just buy anything i like, but must be worth the money of course. its not good. cos i have excessive things. wj will try to ask me not to buy or try not to spend too much whtn i go shopping. haha i TRY not to. but u know, sometimes when u go shopping and dont get anything, u will not feel shuang. haha. i wonder how many people share the same sediments as me. haha. sometimes i wished i printed money. i have to start saving for the future. i can forsee many things happening to my family and me. i will have to support them. its difficult but i will try. i see how my daddy supports this family and it really inspires me. he works so hard for the family, wanting to give us a good life. and he did. but my stupid sisters dont appreciate it. they take all these for granted. sometimes i really want to knock some sense into their thick skulls. arghs.

daddy is always overseas. flying to paris and china. i was envious but then again. not anymore. he's always tired. and the amount of times he sleeps. haha i think i sleep twice of the time he sleeps. im a pig. hai. dont really know why suddenly just feel like typing all these out. just ya. being with him made me think about alot of stuff i have. and the little things around me. so, who said that having a boyfriend is not good HUH?! haha

ok got to go pack up my untidy room, as usual, and maybe watch some webcast. i dont want to miss out on anymore things. =)

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