i have NO mood to study at all. ZERO ZIP. i just threw my biology textbook on the bed.

i am tired. i really am. i dont know why. i just am.

somehow it is all my fault. i just want to apologise again. maybe i am apologising too much that it doesnt have that effect there already. but ya. i am sorry.

disappointed was what you said you felt at that time. sorry for not discussing it with you. i really thought i did. apparently not. i dont know what to say. is it the way i say things that sounds sacarstic? well, it wasnt meant to be. i just want everything to be happy and joyful. maybe im trying too hard. one good question u stated, i dun understand why u are so upset abt mi gettin angry. haha i wanted to break down right at that instant. i dont know how to put my thoughts into words.

just feeling kinda depressed right now. then i think about the facade i have to put on later. i will try to be happy and smile. socalise with the people there.

please let these all be over. im not sure if u read my blog. but if u do. i am really sorry. i guess i just havent been considering about your feelings. sorry dear.

maybe i should flood my room again when i come back later. then again, i might be walking alone. somewhere. haha. let me continue being a tap for now.

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