hmmm im quite sian now. played like shit during training. it was so bad that i wanted to dig a hole right where i was standing and bury myself in it. ok maybe just my head. haha. but still. =( i was damn disappointed. i have nothing much to say about that. and about next year's ivp, i think i confirm would not be able to make it. hmmm then again, i dont have to think, i CONFIRM cannot make it. but that would not be a surprise anyway. just enjoy the times i have left in the team ba. haha. just blame it on myself. didnt want to train well in secondary school. but then, with such a lousy coach, but fun, how can i improve?! if only i was under shen jiao lian from the start. i bet i would be so much better in my skills. oh well..

tomorrow's biology lab. i bet it is going to be another boring stupid day. time spent there would be damn sian. arghs. i dont even feel like going for the lecture man. i just feel so lethergic. period is coming. =( and then i will start thinking about rubbish. like now...

just want to see weijie soon. haha. stupid and love sick i sound now. but i really do. then i can keep whining to him. haha. then he will comfort me. ya la. i know people must be thinking, i bet cenying torture's him. haha. no lor. im very nice to him can. haha.

come to think about it. i might not even want to stay in hall next year. just the feeling is not there. i feel so empty out of a sudden. feel like nothing is keeping me here. im not close to anyong around here. besides lydia. i dont know. people seem to be putting up a front. then again, perhaps not. i dont want to be thinking about such stuff. haha i think im going nuts. but i cant help it. maybe my grades will improve if i dont stay in hall? i hope so.. i really want my cap to go up to at least a 3 point something.. jiayou girl..

today i wanted to go and look for my dad. but he was not in his office. i was quite disappointed. i havent seen him in a longgg time. just wanted to say hi and see how is he doing. even though he's fierce and irritating sometimes. he's still a very good father. know that he was very disappointed with me last semester. but he didnt show it much. just asked me to buck up and study harder after getting angry. haha

got to start working soon. help.

another boring post from the boring person.

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