miss lim is unhappy.
is it me or everything i do is wrong.
or it doesnt seem right.
nothing seems to go well.
and from now until the exams end,
i doubt anything will make me smile.
a real genuine smile.
sometimes i just feel like living in my own world.
lock myself in the room.
dreaming and never wake up.
maybe that way, everything will seem better.
i dont want to make people sad.
sometimes i smile and laugh alot.
so people will not know what i am actually feeling inside.
masquerade.
i want all these unhappiness to end.

its not that i dont want to listen.
maybe im just not trying hard enough.
sometimes what i want to say doesnt come out the right way.
i am bad at expressing myself.
those who know me should know that.
i stumble and stammer.
maybe i am bottling up my emotions.
i dont want to let others know.

please let whatever bad things that is going on come to an end.
please let all these be a dream.
please let the sun shine brightly again.
please let me smile.

sorry if i made you feel as if you werent important. you are
sorry if i dont listen to what you have to say.
sorry if i made u sad.
sorry for being such a bad girlfriend.
sorry for being so unreasonable.
sorry for being nonchalent to what you say.
sorry for being such a bitch.
sorry for everything.

i hate to argue.
i hate to let tears stream down my cheeks.
i hate to think about the sad things in life.
i hate to go to bed alone at night.
i hate to stare at the blank and dark ceiling.
i hate to let my mind wonder the moments just before i sleep.
i hate to wake up feeling empty.

i shouldnt clean the stains of tear drops off my table
cos it will always mean more to come.

sorry.

if you ever read my blog.

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