alot of things have been running through my mind. everything. i wonder when will it stop.
maybe i am that lousy. i should just keep quiet.

went to sentosa with my ahma, sisters, maid and my aunt's family! haha. it wasnt much cos my ahma cant really walk. it was a drive around sentosa. i tell u, sentosa cove (is it?) is damn pretty! and the houses there are freaking expensive! damn. there was one which costed 8million! my uncle works at sentosa so he could bring us ard. then again, ure paying for the very nice sea view. =) if only i could live there *dreams* hmmm, however, i think i would rather spend the money on something else. MILLIONS of dollars mind you. *boo

seiously im damn lazy to upload photos. will do them when im more free and when i feel like it.
sentosa trip
D&D
huijing's bday
haha. so many!

going to buck up man. think studying with kenny they all will be helpful. but im afraid of asking questions. i dont know why. i just do. i feel that my question might be stupid. or maybe they'll think that at this point of time and i still dont know the basic fundmentals?! haha. stupid me right. then of cos they'll say that there's no such thing as a stupid question, its stupid not to ask. sigh. i better open my golden mouth and start asking questions. be alittle more think skinned. HELP!

im very glad that i have a smartypants daddy who can help me with my studies. dont know what will i do without you. sigh. sorry to have let you down so many times. i feel bad. i have put in alot more effort this semester. but if i cant make it, i really dont know what to do, how to face you. im sorry daddy, but i will try my best. really. really. thank you for believing in me.

im not staying in hall next semester, that is IF i can still study in nus. i think its a wise choice. really. i can come back and spend time with my ahma, spend time with my friends, maybe not as much time with weijie, but its still better than nothing right. i should have made this choice 2 semesters ago. well.

you have to weigh the pros and cons about hall life. friends just stay a few steps away, gossips, joy and laughter. but then again, what you see might not be what you get.
how would you know if they are just putting on a facade?
how would you know if they are talking behind ur back?
how would you know if they are gossipping?
how would you know if they wun backstab you?
how would you know if they are true to you, true friends?
how would you know ... ?

well i can say, i dont know. of cos, not everyone is bad la. there are nice people there of cos. just that maybe i dont want to risk. i dont know. part of me is glad that the semester is ending soon, part of me cant bear to leave the room that i have been staying for 2 years! =( sigh.

sounds cliche, but so many people walk in and out of your life, but just how many of them leave footprints in them? haha. you may laugh, but think about it, how many people are really always there for you when ure in need.

i really need to study even harder. pull my socks until its knee high.

i feel rather sad after reading jiehua's post. i dont know what to say. just that i would try my best to spend even more time with my ahma. talk to her. be there for her. she always says that she's alright. but i highly doubt so. she's in pain but she would rather keep to herself than to inform us. i dont want to accept the fact that she is old. i really dont want too. but someday, i would have to. eventually.


ahma i love you! =)

random incoherrent thoughts. dont mind me. as usual.

time to mind my own business. tired.

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