finally back at home. moved home over the weekend. i have SO much things i can hardly believe myself. no surprises that my mummy was singing to me on the way home. boo. anw now my house is like a warehouse. sigh. i feel like throwing everything away! easy right.

a lot of things has been on my mind. mostly about school. exams. i know that it has just passed and that results would be out only about 2-3 weeks later. but still, there is a fear.

i dont pin too much hopes on staying on in the university. i really dont. i did the papers, i know how i would fare. please do not put hopes in me cos i know that i would be disappointed if i do not make the grade.

my daddy has been very supportive. he always tells me that as long as i have done my best, he's happy. it doesnt matter if i cant stay on, cos it is not the end of the world. you can always take another route. haha. yes i know. thank you for your constant encouragements. but, i overheard you telling ahma that you dont think i can make it. i understand it is not that you are looking down on me, but from a professional point of view, i really cannot make it. i was very sad. but i just pretended to still be sleeping. sigh. well, he doesnt know that i know. have to learn to be strong. i dont even have to wait until the results to be out to find an alternative, i have to start now.

its a sinking feeling that i dont know how to express.

i really am trying hard not to show it. trying hard to suppress my emotions. i mean, we have to be optimistic right? we have to be cheerful in front of others ya. imagine if you go out with ur friendds with a black face. who would be bothered about you. hahah.

let me get through this. truthfully, i havent studied as hard, as much, as i did this semester as compared to the other 3 semesters. sigh. i hope i can handle this well. anw, its still 2 weeks away. just let me enjoy while i can.

on a happier note, i have ALOT of photos to upload! sentosa with dear, dinner with minghui, dinner with friends, sentosa again with lydia huijing candy, dinner at nydc with lydia huijing candy mae xiuyi delfine sab seah teckwee sijie, ZOO with lydia huijing mae xiuyi delfine! haha. maybe i'll let the photos do the talking in the next few posts. also not forgetting my beloved room 603. haha.

i am already starting to miss hall. miss the people around me. =(

i miss LYDIA and HUIJING!! hahahaha.

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