didnt manage to go ecp to cycle with lydia and huijing. my fault. sigh. cos mr lim is in spore and he says that he's going to give me tuition everyday until he leaves for his next trip.

in the end, he was pissed with his stupid dopod phone and we headed to parkway to get another phone. a second hand P990i which looks like a brand new phone. if only he'd give the money to me instead. haha. well at least he's happy with his new find and im safe for tonight. the terror begins tomorrow.

even though i dont really say it, i do miss the hall life. and i miss lydia and huijing.

2 years with the girls. screaming and shouting every other night, laughing like there are only the few of us living in the hall and the never ending suppers. they've been there for me through my arguments with weijie, talking to me, making me laugh and just being there to listen. then there were times where miss lim will come to my house just to drive me back to hall cos i couldnt stand being at home. haha. discussing about rabbits, gossipping, complaining, whining.. buaya week, ihg, ibg, dragging each other to the stupid mtgs just to get points. painting banner for lydia during pageant, screaming and shouting and rooting for her, out wing gearing up all our stuff for some of her shoots, feeling over the moon when mr/miss shears were awarded to block B.. killing cockroaches and asking zhao to clear its remains. our wing looking so pretty during christmas. shopping online and getting addicted to it. cooking maggie and stealing eggs. waking each other up for study sessions. huijing and i waking up at 840 for a 9AM paper, this i'll never forget. impromptu ktv sessions. zoo and huijing's veg farm. and so many more events.

i guess things have changed. there's so much i want to say. but maybe u'll just take my words with a pinch of salt. i brought it upon myself. just feeling kind of heart wrenching whenever i think about it. we dont talk online or msg anymore. or maybe im making myself feel like that. always cannot make it for meetups, and the bintan trip. i apologise for everything. sorry.

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