havent had time to update. busy week! haha.

went back to nus to see how the CAC camp was coming along. ahaha. at least they seem to be having fun. and stupid eugene dared me to put my foot into a pail of starch. if i did, he will too. idiots. haha all i can say was that the bloody starch was hot! and it was too sticky. took damn long to wash it off. yucks. haha. and there was this other girl in group 5 whose name was cheng ying. haha. quite cute la. didnt get to see the other freshies cos they were all blindfolded. boo.

met with the ME guys on wednesday for dinner and some desserts. haha. as usual, they suan me like nobody's business. but its alright. i will miss them! cos i dont think i will be taking similar modules the next semester. im going to be a loner.

guess who's sexy leg was that! haha.

supposed to have dinner with mae lydia and huijing. but it was canceled. =( another day.

friday night was back to the CAC camp! lol. they had their SP revelation night at this cafe in pasir ris park. summer breeze. i think. the ambiance was very nice. but i thought it was too cosy for my liking. haha. didnt take much photos though.

after dinner, we headed down to zouk. my first time in a club this year! lol. thought that the freshie guys will join in also. cos it has been a tradition that group 5 will go club every year. wells. the girls had fun anyway. haha. didnt drink much. just had fun on the dance floor. haha. girls let loose! lol. then the guys had to be our bodyguards, as usual cos the place was packed.

i got puked on my shoe. =( think i'll have to throw it away. the sole is coming off cos i washed it. haha.

saturday was fun. simple, sweet, special. 66 070707 0330 88
haha nice numbers!

will be heading down to meichin's birthday party later. =)

after almost 2 months. im starting to pull through. my heart doesnt ache as much as it did before. i admit that occasionally when i do still think about it, i will feel xin suan. memories will always stay. it was part of my life. almost 2 years.

i appreciated things that was done for me, small gestures that u showed. doesnt mean i didnt show it means it was unappreciated. some said that i was silly in the past. but i chose to believe that i loved you, so it didnt matter. i have learnt not to hold on to things as tightly as before. maybe instead of thinking how much u have done for me, why not just sit down and think about how much I have done for you also. then again, in a relationship, must we be so calculative of who has done what. we couldnt communicate well. when there was an argument, we just shouted at each other, or i'll just listen while u lecture me. i think, until now, after everything has happened, we still would not be able to communicate. i understand you well enough to know what would be going through ur mind. its ok if u want to leave things as it is now. i wouldnt want to force things.

you've move on. i will too. just want to say thanks for everything that you've done in the past. and all the best to you.

ok, now i feel silly. cos i will not know if he ever reads my blog. haha. just thought of typing it out, once and for all. it ends.